Please don’t worry about me I will never be worth it

They say if people worry about you that means they love you

But to me it just means that I did something to make you anything other than happy

I know I’m selfish for always wanting to disappear

But I wish you knew I’m doing this for you

I always make you worry 

And I always hurt you

My therapist says “the world would be boring without you”

But I am nothing more than a tiny spec on this huge spinning rock

And after a while you will all realize that this was for the better

And forget about me sooner or later

I know what your thinking “that this is the most selfish thing you can do”

But to me it’s the best thing I can do for you

I always do everything wrong and can never figure out what to do right

But I’ve found something but you fight me on this

Why can’t you realize that I’m bad for you?

Why can’t you admit that you're tired of me?

Do you really want to feel this good about yourself?

That you want me to make you miserable?

I make excuses and I always Lie

Saying I want to live

But I’m only living cause I’m to scared of what's after this

And I’m scared of being alone

Why can’t you see that I’m a mistake

Why can’t you see that I’m the problem

But don’t worry about me I’ll never be worth it

Cause all I do is lie and cry

I’m pathetic

Yes I know

I even make my parents fight

I am set for failure 

I’ll only weigh you down

There is nothing good about me

I am a monster

A freak

I was a mistake

And I am weak

I have everything

But yet im miserable

But don't worry about me I will never be worth it

Even my dad says I’ll never go to college

That I’ll end up like my mom

But don’t worry about me I’m not worth it