Teen Ink

Me...

I am Bastard Child, Yes, that's exactly what I said.
Bastard
If you are offended or feel violated you have no right to be
This name is simply the title given to me
Truthfully my name is Marie

Marie Angelique Poss

My father is not my own and credited me the nick name
His name is Gene Donald Poss
For all the things I hate, one thing I am grateful for
He gave me a last name
Another to recall is he gave my infant self a place to be...seeing as mother left me
She left me with my sister Rachael who belongs by blood to both
I have nine brothers and three sisters if we don't count DNA too carefully
I grew up mostly though with Rach
The others acting like a passerby. . . . in and out of my life

My mother is a whore
A druggy, and a drunk
Her hand hits hard and her words are sharp

My now father is a drinker
He likes coke, meth, heroin and pot
He yells a whole lot and hesitates not a single second to hammer a mistake

He has a problem keeping his hands to himself
He seems to believe sexual acts are for everyone
He has been to prison enough to call it home
He killed a kid at thirteen and his sarcasm is more than mean

Now that you know the basic details of my start
I'd like to begin with a description of me
Keep in mind however this is younger me
The first pictures of my growing up years and not who I am to become

I plan to take you through these pages
Each memory and tale
Know that I will grow as the stories go
And my circumstances start here with these details
But they don't stay the same...









My eyes are bright green
Bits of ocean blue eliminate the rim and golden brown burst from the center
My lips are full and a rose color
My skin is smooth and white with hints of pink
My facial features rounded with childish chub
My nose and cheeks freckled
My body short and broad
My hair sandy brown readying itself to darken

I am fearlessly adventurous
I am terrified of people
I will be silent until I am forced
When I talk I talk a lot
I am sarcastic and a smart-aleck
I scream and kick walls
I do not want your affection
I do not want to be touched
I will disappear into the wall

I hate the dark and despise when people yell
I have trouble in school
I have a gap in my front teeth
I have had long hair and a rat tail

Kids call me trailer trash
Motherless and dirt

I roll my eyes a lot
I can run very fast
My temper has the better part of me
And I see the world as a challenge that I will beat



















So Hello!
Welcome to my brain
Welcome to the dwelling place of my secret sins and shames
Prepare yourself
For this is the heart of a Bastard Kid