He is..., She is...

she is in the middle of a wrestling ring, the crowd is chanting her name, she feels proud, she has worked
long and hard for his moment. She turns around, in every direction there are people, holding paper posters showing their love for
the wrestlers back stage. They are all screaming, whistling, but most of all smiling. They love wrestling just as much as she does.
She can feel the heat of 10,000 people that esoteric the Arena. She can smell the mixed aroma of sweat, perfume, rubber, and most of all
excitement. She steps forward and as she speaks the crowd begins to blare.." Who's ready for some Wrestling?", she asks. The crowd bellows
" YES" and the sound of beating drums and vigorous music begins. She holds her breath, she knows he is coming. The one man
who has held her together, even without knowing he has. She doesn't breathe until she See's him run onto the stage. He erupts with excitement and
charisma. His red shirt seems to sparkle just like his sublime blue eyes. He joggs to the ring, then stops and looks up, she sees his smile and nearly
faints, she was told a thousand, no a million times not to act like she does when she sees him, and for the most part she can contain herself, but when he
smiles her heart is erratic. His face is a pulchritudinous canvas of perfection. His nose, his eyes, his smile, everything about him makes her melt.

He climbs between the ropes and into the ring. She smiles, knowing the burning sensation in her face is showing. Her hands are shaking, enough so
that the microphone is barely able to do its job as she says " Jo...hn Cena is my pick for tag team partner tonight.". John is handed a microphone from
a cameraman. He looks into the crowd and replies " Yes I am...", everything else John said she didn't hear it, all she could hear was her own thoughts.
He was the knight in shinning armor she had always dreamed of, he was the her superman when she was in trouble, and he was the only one she wanted. They
should be together, she thought. Caught up in her own thoughts she hadn't noticed that his arm was lying across her shoulders. She looked at his hand
that hung next to her neck. She shivered, his skin, ever so flawless, was lying against her own. She saw the ring that symbolized his dedication to someone
else that sat on his left hand. She sighed knowing his nectarious lips would never meet hers. She felt the heat from his body radiating to hers. She
longed to wrap her arms around him. To pull him close to her and never let go. She could suddenly feel him looking at her. She looked up and everyone
was looking at her. She looked at him again. His face asked a question she could not hear. She brought her microphone to her lips and said " yeah!", not
knowing what else to say. John Smiled and said " Well looks like we have a main event", the crowd rejoiced. JOhn held the ropes of the wrestling ring up
so she could exit the ring. She jumped down and walked up the ramp towards backstage.

Once she reached backstage JOhn caught up with her"Something is wrong with you", said JOhn emphatically. She looked at him wondering how he could read
her emotions like he did. She looked deep into his blue eyes wondering what to say, she knew she couldn't tell him what was really wrong, that
the one thing she truly wanted she knew she couldn't have, but what was she supposed to say? " Tazzlyn?", JOhn Said. " Yeah, uhh it's nothing", She
said telling a complete lie. " sure doesn't look like nothing, you couldn't even stay concentrated out there and that isn't you at all!", JOhn said
matter of factly. " I know... I'm sorry it won't happen later I promise.", She spoke looking at her feet. That isn't what I'm worried about, I'm
worried about what ever is wrong with you. I have never saw you like this, you look completely defeated.", John Said pulling her chin up to face him.
It was funny, because that is just how she felt, completely defeated. She had worked her whole life, becoming a wrestler, she climbed the latter and
felt so proud, yet when she got to the top all she wanted was him. When she said nothing John became more worried. " Boss man wants you Taz", said a
skinny man in a business suit. She gave him one last look and walked away. As she walked into the office of Mr. Mcmahon she could feel his eyes on her.
She hated not telling him what was wrong, hated making him feel bad, since the day she walked into the arena he had shown her the way. Then a month ago he
had proposed to his girlfriend... She didn't find out until a week ago.. and tonight was the first time she had saw the ring on his finger.
It was like a slap in the face.She loved him. That was the problem, she had promised herself she wouldn't fall in love, especially someone she worked
with, but you can't choose who you love, in the end your heart has the final say.



She had a short briefing of what was supposed to happen tonight then left Mr. Mcmahon's office and went to her dressing room. She sat on the bench
thinking about her duties tonight. She had the whole match played out in her head, yet every time she tried to go over it all she could think about
was him. She was furious with herself. This was the absolute last thing she wanted, to be caught up over some guy and totally unfocused, but when it
came down to it, he wasn't some guy, he was The Guy. She shook off the thought and started stretching.



After an hour of stretching and getting loose she heard a knock at her door. She murmured a " Yes?" and sat on the bench. Kandis Lasher,
her close friend she had met the first day she had came into the wrestling business, walked in. " Hey!", she said sitting next to Tazzlyn.
" Hey", Taz said trying to hide the mood that had came over her. " So what was with the fail earlier? You had like seven or eight lines, did
you forget them?", Kandis asked. " Uhh.. no it was just stage fright", she said trying to sound convincing. " Hahaha, Kandis laughed, You and I
both know you never have and never will get stage fright". Tazzlyn just sat looking at her feet. " It was John Huh?", Kandis declared. Taz sat
quiet for a second debating on how much to tell her. " Yeah a little I guess, I just kinda spaced.", She said. " Uh-Huh, You got lost in those
big blue eyes and that charm of his. Girl you gotta learn how to control yourself, I have never saw someone so crazy about someone else in my
life", Kandis laughed. " Tonight you better not space, you keep your head in it, cause girl you mess up and you will hear it from the Boss Man and
you will never get to wrestle with John again.", Kandis warned. " I know I'm just gonna sit here and clear my head then i'll be good", Taz said
hoping she could clear her mind. " Alright, well your on in twenty so hurry up.", said Kandis leaving. Tazzlyn shook her head then watched the
door close.





" From Tulsa Oklahoma, Country Girl Tazzlyn Davis!",
She walked on the stage. Waved at everyone and started walking down the ramp. She felt her music in her stomach, She loved the feeling of the crowd.
She could feel their excitement. Tonight is just another night, she kept telling herself. If she remembered that she would be okay. She climbed into
the ring and went to the corner. She stood on the second rope hands held high, she felt like she was on top of the world. The fans were all
screaming. She took a deep breath then jumped down, this part was going to be the hardest part, but if she made it threw this, the rest of the night
would be easy. She heard tangerines, then loud drums, then the announcer " From West New bury Massachusetts weighting two hundred and forty pounds,
John Cena!", He ran onto the stage, he looked pumped. She took a deep breath. She tried to look excited and ready, but the more she tried the more
she thought about him. He ran down the ramp sliding into the ring. He jumped up and looked at her. She smiled and tried to make it look genuine.
He held his hand up and she high fived him. They went to their corner of the ring. " We are gonna talk after this.. don't leave until I find you okay",
John whispered. She shook her head. " Just breathe, you got this, your an amazing wrestler lets go!", John Said. She felt better and began focusing
on what she came to do. Vicky Fernandez was her opponent. John Climbed out of the ring and stood cheering her on, from the opposite side of the ropes.
Vicky's partner was Shane choc. She prepared herself for Vicky. Then she heard " Ding Ding" the match had officially began.



In the middle of the match Vicky tagged in Shane, Taz ran to the corner and tagged in JOhn. John jumped into the ring tackling Shane, Taz knew
the match would be over in a matter of seconds. John stood up and held his hand high in the air. Everyone knew what was coming. He waved his hand
in front of Shane's and said " You can't see me!", then he ran to the ropes and ran back, then waved his shoulders and Five Knuckle shuffled Shane.
Then for the finisher. Shane stood up and John Picked him up in a fireman's carry. Attitude adjustment, then threw Shane onto the ring floor.
JOhn layed across Shane's stomach, ONE, TWO, Three, and Taz and John won the tag team match. Taz climbed into the ring and JOhn Picked her up, then hugged her
close. For that moment she was truly happy. His arms around her made her shiver. John felt it too. she could see it in his eyes and when she shivered he
looked at her and he knew.




Taz and John walked up the ramp together slapping hands with all the fans. When they entered back stage Taz took a deep breath. " I think I know",
John murmured. Taz looked around. " What?", she said. " I know what is wrong.", John Declared. " What do you think is wrong?", Taz said wanting to
turn and run. " You... It's me isn't it.", John asked. "No!", Taz almost yelled. Then it was all to obvious. " I... You...", Taz tried explaining.
She looked at her feet and shook her head fighting the tears, she had gone near ten years without crying and she sure wasn't going to now! John
lifted her chin. His blue eyes met hers. She was fighting a losing battle. He could see the wetness of her eyes, he had never saw her like this.
" I didn't know..", he said. " No you didn't know what? I don't understand what you are saying.", Taz said trying to deny it. " You..Love me..don't
you.", John said. "If I did it wouldn't matter now..would it!", Taz said walking away. She was mad, more with herself than him. She wasn't going to
cry over something that she couldn't change. She went to her dressing room and grabbed her bag. She walked out of the arena and climbed into her rental
car and left. She drove to the nearest hotel and after renting a room she threw her bag to the floor, climbed into bed and fell to sleep quickly.




**********





HOURS Earlier


He heard his music begin and knew it was time. He ran onto the stage. Fans were screaming and holding their homemade signs. He loved the way the
crowd pumped him up before he even stepped into the ring. He looked at the square box that sat dead center of the arena. There she was. The most
beautiful thing he had ever saw. Inside and out she was perfectly imperfect. He loved every thing about her. How she had came from such a little
town where she was destined to go no where and deified the odds to become something. She had worked every bit as hard as he had. Since the day he
had shook her hand he had fell in love. It had been a year. One year of telling himself he didn't love her as much as he thought, but he knew it.
He thought maybe she would see it and would call him on it before it was to late, but she didn't. She didn't love him, she was just his friend.
He told himself that every night, hoping that one day he would actually believe himself. So he had proposed to his girlfriend. He wasn't sure the
real reason he had. Maybe it was so he didn't have to be lonely anymore, but if that was the case he had made a big mistake, because he was more
alone now than ever. Maybe it was so he didn't have to ask himself every night if she loved him, if so that was also a big mistake. Maybe it was
so someone would actually love him, and if that was the case that was the biggest mistake of all, because she didn't love him. His soon to be
wife didn't even love him, she just loved his money. It's sad even she didn't love him, who would, he thought.


He ran down the ramp and climbed into the ring, he couldn't help but smile at her. She was so amazing, however when she returned the smile it wasn't
her normal smile, there was an unspoken sadness in her smile that he had never saw before. He held his hand up and she high fived him. Then she said
" Jo..hn Cena is my tag team partner", and he knew something was wrong with her. He said " yes I am, Tonight we face Shane and Vicky, a.k.a the human
jar of mayonnaise and his pet monkey. So Taz you are in the women's locker room does Vicky shave before she comes into the ring every Monday or does she
had laser hair removal?". He looked at her. She said nothing. Then looking shocked she yelled " yeah!". John was confused, she had eight more lines she
was supposed to say. So John shrugged and said " well looks like we have a main event. He knew the crowd was just as confused as he was.


He held the ropes for her and she jumped down. Something else not like her, she walked straight up the ramp and backstage. She always slapped the fans
hands before she went backstage. He followed her up the ramp and as soon as they were back stage he said " something is wrong with you". She looked
shocked. After several minutes of her not responding he said " tazzlyn?". She looked up at him and said " uhh.. oh yeah it's nothing". He knew she was
lying. " sure doesn't look like nothing, you couldn't even stay concentrated out there and that isn't you at all!", he said. she looked guilty " I know
I'm sorry it won't happen later I promise!", she said looking at her feet. " That isn't what i'm worried about, i'm worried about whatever is wrong
with you. I have never seen you like this, you look completely defeated", he said pulling her chin up to look into her deep blue eyes. She didn't
speak. She just looked at him like she was about to start crying, he was torched knowing she was hurting. " Boss man wants you Taz!", said a voice
behind him. He turned and saw Mr. Mcmahon's assistant. Perfect timing idiot he thought as she walked past him. He turned watching her walk into
Mcmahon's office.




He pased his locker room debating whether he should go to her looker room and talk to her or if he should wait until after the match... but would
she wait? Would she even talk to him. He was so destracted and confused he felt he might spontaniously combust. He sat on the bench holding his
head in his hands. He was racking his brain trying to figure out what was wrong with her. She had never had a bad day, and if she had no one
knew. She didn't hide her emotions, she just never was sad, nothing could get to her, until today. He leaned back and something caught his eye.
He looked at the wedding ring that lay on his left hand. He was dissusted. He hated the thought of kissing her and she hated kissing him. He had
been told he was ugly, stupid, and worst of all worthless by her, yet he was marriing her and couldn't figure out why. He didn't love her, didn't
even like her. He just let her take his money and do nothing about it. He wanted to take the ring off and throw it as far as he could, but he knew
she would start a huge fight when he went home. He couldn't take anymore conflict. He stood up and began stretching trying to clear his head, knowing
if he went into the ring with his head this messed up he would fall on his face.




He was standing in the enterance of the stage waiting for his music to begin, his mind a lot more clear than before, but not clear enough. His
music began. He took a deep breath. Then ran onto the stage. The fans were all smiling. He smiled back, feeling better. The Wrestling universe
loved him. That was something he could never forget. He ran down the ramp and jumped into the ring. She was breathing heavily. She smiled at
he could tell she was hiding something. He held his hand up and she returned it with a high five. She walked to the corner of the ring and he
looked at her and said " We are gonna talk after this.. Don't leave until I find you okay!", he said. she was breatheing even harder. He grabbed
her shoulders and said " just breathe you got this, Your an amazing wrestler lets Go!!", he said. He could see her breathing slow and she began
preparing for the match. Vicky stepped into the ring. Shane stood where he did opposite of him. He watched her wrestle amazed at how far she
had come. she was built to wrestle. She could flow so easily, they way she moved made him shake. She was the one made for him. He was made for
her... he thougtht. So distracted in his own thoughts he nearly missed Her tag. He jumped in the ring and tackeled Shane.



While he had Shane over his shoulders he sent a prayer to the man in the sky " please tell her, show her, that I love her!", then he threw
Shane onto the ring floor. He fell onto him and After three counts him and her had won the match. She climbed into the ring and without
thinking he picked her up and hugged her tight. Then he felt it. It was like a jolt of electristy ran threw her body, she shivered. He knew
it. She did love him! He felt it too! In that moment he was the happiest man alive. She smiled and looked up, knowing his prayer had been
answered.


He ran up the ramp slapping hands of all the fans. When he reached back stage he turned to her and said " I think I know.", John Murmered.
She looked around, like she was trying to avoid hte conversation, it all made sense now, she had loved him all along he was just to stupid
to realize it, he felt so stupid. " what?", she said. " I know what is wrong!", he said. " What do you think is wrong", she said. " you...
it's me isn't it?", he said not quite sure how to say it. " NO!", she yelled. He knew in that moment he was right. She looked as if she
was either going to punch him or cry and he was willing to except the hit rather than she her blue eyes in agony. " You love me...don't you",
he said. " If I did it wouldn't matter now..would it!", she said and then walked away. His mouth dropped open. He couldn't believe it. He knew
he had officially messed up. He didn't know how to fix it, but he wasn't going to leave it like this. He ran out to the exit, but she had already
left. He shook his head. Then ran back to his locker room and grabbed his phone. He called her six times, all with no answer.
He drove around looking for her car in all the hotels, but never found her. Finally he gave up hope and started driving home.





As he walked in the door Eliton, his flat faced dog, greeted him. He scooped him up in his arms and hugged him close. He needed the feeling
of something close to him. He heard a loud voice demand " shut the door its freezing". He rolled his eyes and pulled the door closed. He put
Eliton down in the kitchen and walked into the livingroom. His finace looked him up and down yet said nothing. she remained tied to the televison
flipping threw endless channels. He looked at her and said " hey can I talk to you for a second". She ignored him. He walked to the t.v turning it
off. He wasn't going to play games anymore. " What the hell", she yelled. " I need to talk to yoU!", he said sitting next to her. She looked at
him annoyed. " Why do you want to be with me?", he asked. " are you serious turn the t", she began before he cut her off " just answer the question
and i'll turn it back on", he said. She looked around the room and then spoke quickly " You... You know I love you.". He looked at her. She began
to look nervous. " Why are you looking at me like that.", she asked. He held her hand and said " I don't want to play games with you Jenn. I want
you to be happy, and not just happy because of the things you have. I want you to be loved by someone and love them back.", he said. Her nervousness
changed to anger " YOU ARE CHEATING!", she yelled. Just what someone would think that wasn't listening to a word i'm saying, he thought. " No,
listen to me, I don't love you, I have been lying to myself telling myself I love you, but the truth is I love someone else and you don't deserve
someone who doesn't love you", he said. She jerked her hand from his and stood up, " Get out of my house now! I never want to see you again!",she
screamed. He stood up and went to the bedroom, he packed his clothes. He grabbed his dog and climbed into his car. He had no idea where he was going.




*********





she woke to a knock barely audible. She glanced at her phone, 3 a.m. She walked to her door. Then unlocked it and pulled it open. Tears began falling
from her eyes. There stood the man she loved with everything inside her, no ring on his finger, Holding two duffle bags and a small white flat face
puppy. He looked more vunerible than she had ever saw him. He had tears falling from his eyes. She opened the door wide and he stepped in, dropped
his bags, sat his pup down and pulled her into a hug as he said " I have loved you since the day i met you, I have been telling myself I don't, but I
do. I never would have guessed that you loved me back. I was getting married to prove to myself that I don't love you, but in the end it hurt me more
being with someone else than just being your friend. I need you in my life, from this day forward I never want to be parted from you. I want you to
never be sad, I want you to never have to worry about another thing, all you have to do is wake up and i'll do the rest. I Love you". She spoke
quiet and softly into his ear " I love you". He pulled back and looked into his eyes. Then pressed his lips to hers.