Reflctions of Me

Stay me or
Remember who I was and am
Change to be able to
Leave the hurtful words behind
Weight I can change
Looks of who I am
I cannot

Like a spinning tornado of
Hurt I collapse to my knees
Tears and agony
Surface
I can't exact this

When I look in the
Mirror I've lost
Who I am and was

To say I believe
In me is worth nothing
If I can't be who i want to
Be

I don't try to put myself out There to accept what's about to be
Judged.

I speck in tens and speck
Freely because that hides the
Emotion trapped inside

Left to nothing I
Walk
I try not to accept
The pass comes back and
Haunts me

I try to remember
What thing I did to make somebody feel this bad
Then have karma come around and get me

Carrying on to be me
Can't be wrong but it
Doesn't feel right

So I collapse to my knees
I'm not the person I need to be
I'm not who I want to be

Left to nothing
I walk alone
To find myself
Again