Healing

I should not thank them,
for I lived three years in hell
with no escape - not even a chance.

To thank, is not wise,
not after what I endured;
knowing the demons who were to blame.

Yet thanking is thought,
for thanks is shown when grateful,
though I will never say this aloud.

But is thanks too strong
or too great a redemption,
if my demons will forever haunt?

I suppose it is,
though I can't help wondering:
what I would have been without my hell...