On the edge

On the edge, ready to die and five times I've failed.
I just don't understand it, life is a living hell.
I can't stand the taunting and teasing.
Then I have to stand on my own two feet like my life is so easy .

But it's cool, they say.
But I see the victim's tortured face.
The look of silent disgrace.
That poor pitifull look but I look away.

I'm a monster, I hate it, but I can't stop- I've gone too far.
I'm the powerful leader in this school- like war.
I don't have it all.
My victims have more than me.
But I'm pretty and popular and that's all I need.

Well, maybe on that last kid I could've taken it a little easy...
But no, she didn't pay attention to me and that's rule number three.
Oh my gosh, what am I doing?- this girl just took her life!
I didn't mean to make anyone commit suicide.

It was an accident.- it was just a joke.
I can't erase the tortured face of that girl as she hung herself - as she choked.

I can't live like this.
I just cannot.
I already know where I'm going... somewhere that's hot.

How can these other girls do it?
How can they with such a straight face?
Didn't they see it - the poor look of disgrace?

I'm a monster and now my punishment- I must die.
I can't live knowing I've ended someone's life.
Why did I do it?
Why did I oblige?

Now I'm on the edge, and I'm ready to die.
But 5 times I've failed and why must this be?
Those victims make it look so easy.

Maybe that's my punishment.
I don't get the privaledge of the other side.
-I've caused hell on earth, have I not?
Now on earth I shall suffer, now on earth I shall rot.