My name is David, and I was born in May 1997. I have brown hair and brown eyes. I’m about 5’ 10” and I weigh 120 lbs. I am you’re typical high school student. Except, I am my own self and that is what sets me off from everyone else. Many attributes, such as my need for social activity, are what set me apart. Just like they do every other person in the world.
I am very Socially inclined and I love to make friends, and spend time with them. I can’t stand to see my friends in a bad mood, or cry. I love making people smile and having a good time. I would probably be the most social person in the world if my parents weren’t so strict.
Other things contribute to me being myself. And the one thing I’d like to talk about now is quite important yet insignificant at the same time. I’ll explain.
You know now that my name is David and that I was born in May 1997, and my hair color followed by my eye color, then my current weight and height. But, I am not sure you know one thing. I am gay.
For years I knew that I was gay but I didn’t want to say anything, at the personal risk of losing a home to live in and a family to love me, coming from a very republican conservative mother and stepfather. I was oft to hear how bad gay people were and how they were going to hell every time a commercial advocating gay marriage, or show doing the same were to come onto the television. It is their opinion, my parents, to believe that homosexuality is wrong. But, they never thought of how harmful that thought is. And who they were hurting.
I, for 10 years, kept my homosexuality to myself. I feared that I would find myself without a home, much less a family to live in it with. But I recently (January 9th 2013) decided that I was going to tell my parents and the world. My mother was accepting but disappointed, as it were to appear. I came out later that evening to the world in the best way I knew how… Facebook. Everyone was on Facebook in these times. And I couldn’t really see myself coming out at school, because I didn’t want to have to confirm or deny it every ten seconds when someone would come up and ask if it were true. By posting it on Facebook, I made it to where everyone could read it and get over it if they did, or didn’t like it. I didn’t really care for attention. But, that one backfired. 254 friend requests, 342 updates, and 56 messages were sent to my Facebook account that day and my Facebook was SOOO slow. Ha-ha. But now that is over. 9 days later, today, I’ve found that Not everyone would hate me now. Not to say that I wasn’t called names or picked on, but it wasn’t as bad as I’d preconceived it to be.
My mother assured me the night that I told her that she didn’t care what I liked, that she still loved me. But I could tell she was semi-disappointed. And it was proved when she called me on it and told me that I’ve basically ruined her marriage because her husband, my stepfather, hated gay people… with a passion. And that I was inconsiderate of other people because I was selfish enough to not think of the repercussions it would have on her and how her family saw her now.. She did this in the car two days after I had told her. I was hurt. I couldn’t believe it. But I got over it. I’m currently not speaking to her and am planning on moving out soon. I don’t hate her, I have just lost interest in talking to her. She’s my mom, but she’s not my friend anymore. I held that in for ten years, and she had just used it against me 2 days after I’d dolled her. I didn’t try to ruin or her marriage, nor did I.
As for me being selfish because I came out… For ten years though, I had kept it to myself and wanted to yell and scream every day because I was going insane. I’m sorry that I wanted to be myself (not really) and that I didn’t want to wait another 2 and ½ years to come out. I did think of the repercussions that they would have. Deeply I did. I wanted nothing to do with bringing harm to my mom, so I did keep my mouth shut, for ten years. But it’s not my fault that her mother and sister are both devout Catholics. Who now know, I’m sure, and definitely believe I’ll rot in hell, if they do know. But I love them anyways.
BUT!!! Right Now!!! I would like to say this:
No matter what you believe now, the world is changing (thank god) and it’s fine if you are gay, lesbian, transgender, bi, or you are your own thing. Because that is what makes you yourself. And that is what the goal partly is in life. To Be Yourself. Fully. Completely. And Entirely YOURSELF. IF anyone has a problem with you being gay… Screw Them. It’s silly and immature to think that a person is going to go to hell or that they are a bad person if they like the same sex. If you are religious and gay, I’m pretty sure that god gives you FREE WILL in the Christian religion. And the Christian god is a forgiving god. So I’m sure if he can relieve us of our ‘original’ sin, than he can relieve us of this sin as well. Because that’s what it is. Original. You are born that way, whether you realize it at that time or not. And if you don’t believe in a divine creator and you are gay, That’s COMPLETELY fine. You are yourself in this world. And you only get to live life once. So Be you and screw the opinion of ant negative relation. If you are gay. Be gay.
As humans, we rely on each other. Without the proper love, affection, and care we will fall and bring our own demise. Things like:
*faggot
*queer
*gay
*fairy
* and many more
Are just names so don’t let them get to you. But to those who use it… STOP! Words do hurt people. If we keep bringing our fellow human down to a lower level, we will not get anywhere in this world. We can’t keep killing each other because we believe different things. We can’t keep getting in fights because someone is going against your god. We can’t keep living in fear of someone who is unknown to us, because they wear a hijab or turban. We can’t keep thinking in classes, as to where one is lower and one is higher. WE CAN”T KEEP ACTING ON OUR DIFFERENCES NEGATIVELY!!!
I’m not one to start a movement, and that’s certainly not what I’m doing. Because the LGBT support and avocation groups have been around for a while trying to solve and rid the bigotry in humans for quite a while. But I really want anyone who reads this to know that they need to stand up for not just gay rights, but any freedoms. From ending France’s law that A woman cannot wear a abaya, niqab, or burqa, even if by her own volition. All the way to the recent ban and cancelation of all pending adoptions from Russia. We need to stop the hate and violence and just love one another. No one should be more powerful than the other. That’s what a democracy is about isn’t it?... I can’t tell you how much I sincerely mean it when I say “I may not know you, or ever meet you, but I Love you. With all my heart, I love you.”
I really do. It kills me to see people who have to deal with discrimination and hate because of personal beliefs.
So if you’re LGBT , Muslim, Christian, Atheist, Buddhist, Emo, Nerdy, or anything that you feel that you’d be judged for, just be yourself. Because once you get yourself acclimated to YOUR own way of life, you’ll find it easier to get around in this world. I love you guys So Much. Keep your chin’s up. And let’s actually make a difference.
I am very Socially inclined and I love to make friends, and spend time with them. I can’t stand to see my friends in a bad mood, or cry. I love making people smile and having a good time. I would probably be the most social person in the world if my parents weren’t so strict.
Other things contribute to me being myself. And the one thing I’d like to talk about now is quite important yet insignificant at the same time. I’ll explain.
You know now that my name is David and that I was born in May 1997, and my hair color followed by my eye color, then my current weight and height. But, I am not sure you know one thing. I am gay.
For years I knew that I was gay but I didn’t want to say anything, at the personal risk of losing a home to live in and a family to love me, coming from a very republican conservative mother and stepfather. I was oft to hear how bad gay people were and how they were going to hell every time a commercial advocating gay marriage, or show doing the same were to come onto the television. It is their opinion, my parents, to believe that homosexuality is wrong. But, they never thought of how harmful that thought is. And who they were hurting.
I, for 10 years, kept my homosexuality to myself. I feared that I would find myself without a home, much less a family to live in it with. But I recently (January 9th 2013) decided that I was going to tell my parents and the world. My mother was accepting but disappointed, as it were to appear. I came out later that evening to the world in the best way I knew how… Facebook. Everyone was on Facebook in these times. And I couldn’t really see myself coming out at school, because I didn’t want to have to confirm or deny it every ten seconds when someone would come up and ask if it were true. By posting it on Facebook, I made it to where everyone could read it and get over it if they did, or didn’t like it. I didn’t really care for attention. But, that one backfired. 254 friend requests, 342 updates, and 56 messages were sent to my Facebook account that day and my Facebook was SOOO slow. Ha-ha. But now that is over. 9 days later, today, I’ve found that Not everyone would hate me now. Not to say that I wasn’t called names or picked on, but it wasn’t as bad as I’d preconceived it to be.
My mother assured me the night that I told her that she didn’t care what I liked, that she still loved me. But I could tell she was semi-disappointed. And it was proved when she called me on it and told me that I’ve basically ruined her marriage because her husband, my stepfather, hated gay people… with a passion. And that I was inconsiderate of other people because I was selfish enough to not think of the repercussions it would have on her and how her family saw her now.. She did this in the car two days after I had told her. I was hurt. I couldn’t believe it. But I got over it. I’m currently not speaking to her and am planning on moving out soon. I don’t hate her, I have just lost interest in talking to her. She’s my mom, but she’s not my friend anymore. I held that in for ten years, and she had just used it against me 2 days after I’d dolled her. I didn’t try to ruin or her marriage, nor did I.
As for me being selfish because I came out… For ten years though, I had kept it to myself and wanted to yell and scream every day because I was going insane. I’m sorry that I wanted to be myself (not really) and that I didn’t want to wait another 2 and ½ years to come out. I did think of the repercussions that they would have. Deeply I did. I wanted nothing to do with bringing harm to my mom, so I did keep my mouth shut, for ten years. But it’s not my fault that her mother and sister are both devout Catholics. Who now know, I’m sure, and definitely believe I’ll rot in hell, if they do know. But I love them anyways.
BUT!!! Right Now!!! I would like to say this:
No matter what you believe now, the world is changing (thank god) and it’s fine if you are gay, lesbian, transgender, bi, or you are your own thing. Because that is what makes you yourself. And that is what the goal partly is in life. To Be Yourself. Fully. Completely. And Entirely YOURSELF. IF anyone has a problem with you being gay… Screw Them. It’s silly and immature to think that a person is going to go to hell or that they are a bad person if they like the same sex. If you are religious and gay, I’m pretty sure that god gives you FREE WILL in the Christian religion. And the Christian god is a forgiving god. So I’m sure if he can relieve us of our ‘original’ sin, than he can relieve us of this sin as well. Because that’s what it is. Original. You are born that way, whether you realize it at that time or not. And if you don’t believe in a divine creator and you are gay, That’s COMPLETELY fine. You are yourself in this world. And you only get to live life once. So Be you and screw the opinion of ant negative relation. If you are gay. Be gay.
As humans, we rely on each other. Without the proper love, affection, and care we will fall and bring our own demise. Things like:
*faggot
*queer
*gay
*fairy
* and many more
Are just names so don’t let them get to you. But to those who use it… STOP! Words do hurt people. If we keep bringing our fellow human down to a lower level, we will not get anywhere in this world. We can’t keep killing each other because we believe different things. We can’t keep getting in fights because someone is going against your god. We can’t keep living in fear of someone who is unknown to us, because they wear a hijab or turban. We can’t keep thinking in classes, as to where one is lower and one is higher. WE CAN”T KEEP ACTING ON OUR DIFFERENCES NEGATIVELY!!!
I’m not one to start a movement, and that’s certainly not what I’m doing. Because the LGBT support and avocation groups have been around for a while trying to solve and rid the bigotry in humans for quite a while. But I really want anyone who reads this to know that they need to stand up for not just gay rights, but any freedoms. From ending France’s law that A woman cannot wear a abaya, niqab, or burqa, even if by her own volition. All the way to the recent ban and cancelation of all pending adoptions from Russia. We need to stop the hate and violence and just love one another. No one should be more powerful than the other. That’s what a democracy is about isn’t it?... I can’t tell you how much I sincerely mean it when I say “I may not know you, or ever meet you, but I Love you. With all my heart, I love you.”
I really do. It kills me to see people who have to deal with discrimination and hate because of personal beliefs.
So if you’re LGBT , Muslim, Christian, Atheist, Buddhist, Emo, Nerdy, or anything that you feel that you’d be judged for, just be yourself. Because once you get yourself acclimated to YOUR own way of life, you’ll find it easier to get around in this world. I love you guys So Much. Keep your chin’s up. And let’s actually make a difference.
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