You Don't Want to Read This

There will be a day sometime, that you will look at the world and nothing about it will make any sense. Or maybe it already has happened. You know... when everything is wrong, incomperehensible. But at the same time everything makes sense. Complete and utter mind blowing sense. It's scary when that happens. When you know, without a doubt, that you're
just another person. You have no real purpose. When you know that no matter what
you do, it really doesn't make that much of a difference in the entirety of it
all. You can tell yourself all you want that you are ment for something more
important. But really, everything you do is less than a pebble in a pond when you think about the larger scheme of things. Oh, and everyone telling you that you can do anything you want, anything you set your mind to... yeah... they lied. Really it's all just a bunch of nonsence. Brain space that they want to take up. And you beleive them. Because if you didn't then maybe it would make sense. You would realize that you just want to feel important in a world that could care less about what happens to you. You can claw and scream and haul your way to the top of it all and in the end what do you get for your effort? A s*** ton of pissed off people that really just want to see you fall. Sure, they suck up when you're around, but when you're gone? They are just thinking about the best way to stab you in the back. To see you fall. It amuses others. Watching someone bend you, and twist everything about you into something it isn't. It gives them a feeling of power, knowing that at least it isn't happening to them. Because if it isn't happening to them, then they can do it to someone else. They can show another blemish what it feels like to be broken down, shattered and picked apart. Really. Thats just how the world works. Some call it survival of the fittest. Some call it life. Yeah... It is all of that. But you know what else, it's also what we want more than anything else. We all, in some way or another, crave for the pain of others. Because without it, how would it seem normal for us to feel that pain ourselves when someone decides it is our turn? But no one will beleive this. No one wants to hear this. Because it's true. And the truth hurts. Take a look aroud you though. You'll see.