Someone at my school has named me the Crazy God Lover. The only reason that they call me this is because I found God…again. I was born a Christian, but I haven’t been very good at going to church and following the Ten Commandments very well. But the day after one of my friends asked about God and why I believed in him, I couldn’t answer why. In the confirmation classes when they asked why we were there, I was the one that said that my mom made me come today. I never really knew my beliefs and I thought for a while that God would no longer accept me when my life came to a close. So I started listening to the pastors and really thought about what they said. In confirmation class, I listened to the sermon instead of twiddle my thumbs for an hour.

One day, one of me Catholic friends was talking to my Arab friend about God and how he was going to change his life. Somehow they got on the topic of the Ten Commandments, and the Arab friend said asked if you broke a commandment, were you automatically going to hell. I was very interested in the question and replied,” If you admit to your sins and ask for forgiveness, God will still accept you into heaven.” She was at this point laughing so hard, because she said that it was then pointless for Jesus to come down to Earth, and die because all we had to do was say we were sorry and all would be back to normal. I told her that you would be in hell for everything you do wrong if Jesus didn’t come down and wash away our sins when he died. That day I was nicknamed Crazy God Lover. Up until now, I’ve been so mad that people called me that because I wasn’t crazy, I was just not going to sit still and do what I did before and never ask for forgiveness and go to hell. When the world ends, I want to be in heaven and know I’ll be in heaven instead of wondering if I may start to go into the ground to hell. My Arab friend said I was just like Megan-it will make sense if you read Life As We Knew It by Susan Pfeffer. But then I realized something. I am crazy about God. He did so much for me and I do very little for Him. Sure I pray, but that doesn’t benefit Him, it benefits me. He can do miracles, and all I can do is a card trick or 2. So yah, I am a crazy God lover, I know that He will prevail and take me to heaven when it’s my time, and I feel bad for the people that don’t know him because they won’t be up in heaven and have an awesome time like I will.