V-u-l-n-e-r-a-b-i-l-i-t-y

I googled it : the susceptibility of a person, group, society or system to physical or emotional injury or attack.
Emotional injury....no thanks.
I learned at a young age, to never let your guard down. I’m not the type to complain often, even days when I need a friend the most.
I feel crazy but I wont take pills
I feel sad but I DARE you to try and pry my secrets out of my brain
I feel...numb, when you keep pushing me to “open up”, so then I just shut down.
I feel too much at once, so I decide to feel nothing at all.
I constantly surround myself around people so that I never have a chance to be down
Because ill never let them see me cry.
Becase THATS vulnerability.