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Always. Always. Always.

By HaileySanden, Folsom, CA

Why does it still hurt?
Shouldn’t it go away?
Now?
Ever?

It’s so easy to get tired of reaching out, and of being the ONLY ONE to do the reaching. Why do I care more? Always. Always. Always.
It isn’t fair. Is there something wrong with me? Something vitally flawed? Broken? Unfixable?
It’s not like I need them to care. I don’t need that like a need food, water, air. Then why am I starving, dehydrating, suffocating? And why do I still care so much? More. More then they ever will. Always. Always. Always. I just want it to stop. It isn’t fair.

I get excited when they do anything. Even a small thing. A meaningless thing. Something I should know, should KNOW is not important and will not last and will only hurt me twice as much later.

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Basya44
I love how it ends with a hopeful resolution. And I love how emotionally attached you are. It's really healthy. Feelings are always better than numbness. Enthralling.
Jan. 28, 2013 at 1:41 AM • Report
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