I AM

I AM what I want to be
I WONDER why
I HEAR loud music
I SEE nothing clearly
I AM not going to let you see how you affect me

I PRETEND that everything's ok
I FEEL the severity of silence
I TOUCH a pen and express myself
I WORRY all the time
I CRY only when I am alone
I AM always hiding behind a facade

I UNDERSTAND others
I SAY the opposite of what is, sometimes
I DREAM almost never
I TRY but I don't understand what is "enough"
I HOPE that I start to understand soon
I AM, always.