A Suicide Of Sorts

   What do I say

Should I be honest

or

just cling desperately to him

even though he doesn't care

time

tells the secret

I can only hide

wait

all those before me I watch

for they who have

"come out"

death

for me a lifetime of

fear

holding on to him

he draws the fine white

line

between gay and straight

For me I don't know

the right time to

let go

release these feelings

await the verdict

create a subconscious

suicide