why am i alive

Why am I alive?
In a world that doesn't care
In a world that’s not quite there

What were you thinking?
To place me here?
In the land of despair
With people who do not care
With tears that are always there

When I curl up inside
Try to curl up and die
And all they can say is
Why do you feel this way?
Why did you let it get this bad?

Why did I get put
In a church… where every single
Little thing, has to be
Scheduled -on time
Nothing in between the lines

How do I choose
Keep going on
When I can’t choose
How, why or what
I will react to
Or when I get angry or sad

So when I don't know what to do
When I don't know how to react
Or how I should behave
Or when I should just cry
Or just be numb
I will turn only to you
My lord