I Don't Have To Live This Way

I don't have to live this way
I shouldn't have to worry about what your going to say
I'm so much better than him so why do I second guess my thoughts in my head
I shouldn't have to question all that you have already said
I don't have to go through this pain
I shouldn't have nightmares that drive me insane
I'm yelling HELP at the top of my lungs!
but instead all that comes out is a sigh followed by silence
Every time I see you it feels like deja vu
I don't have to live this way
I shouldn't have to count the days till your back here in my arms
Away from harms way
I don't need to ask where you've been
I shouldn't question you the way I do
I do it because of fear
The fear that my heart will get broken
The fear that the unspoken words will be spoken
Don't you see I don't have to live this way
but I do it because I love you forever and a day