My Heart Wants Out

It's spilling out.
Everything is.
My heart. My internal organs. It's all gushing out of my chest.
You wonder why I'm holding you so tight,
When I'm just using you to keep it all in.
You wonder what's going on with me,
But there's no words to explain these tears.

I lied. I'm not okay.
Not even close.
So distract me, because the inside of my head is hazardous.
I cried poison and it spilled into my lips
Do I look okay to you?
Stop asking questions,
Because I have no answers.

Why why why why???
I want to be somebody else,
Because being me is not working out so well.
I don't know what's going on.
Maybe my seams have grown worn.
My stitches have torn open.
And I can't seem to keep it all in.
I'm like a teddy bear with the stuffing ripped out.
I'm bleeding, but you can't really tell.

It's spilling out.
Everything is.
My heart. My internal organs. It's all gushing out of my chest.
You wonder why I'm holding you so tight,
When I'm just using you to keep it all in.
You wonder what's going on with me,
But there's no words to explain these tears.