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By Jaquie, West Palm Beach, FL

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Photo credit: Becky G., Westerville, OH

Pills are my paintbrush
The high is my art
Painting red pictures
Of my broken heart

Pain is my canvas
And life is my muse
Oh how they inspire
Oh how they confuse

The outcasts my clay
The in-crowd my mold
They make a fine sculpture
Bow down and behold

This image I’ve made
Of drug and addiction
Cannot evade
My Lords conviction

I can’t take enough
To hide from his gaze
How high is heaven?
How high will I raise?

Not high enough
And never will be
For the guy up above
Still looks down upon me

When he sees my art
What will his thought be?
What else can he do,
But to condemn me?

And how one so high
Could become yet so low
Is a mystery to me
But my art will show

A picture alone
And a portrait of me
But don’t think your wrong
When my face you can’t see

For while running away
From true art and true love
My planned failed outright
I did not look above

For even though when
I enhanced my highs
I forgot to look up
And ran into the skies

I got hit pretty well
And as you can see
That bump on the head
Knocked some sense into me

My heart was too full
Of these drugs and these lies
And for my Lord
You can’t compromise

And I chose my art
Or what I thought it to be
And the art that I cherished
In turn consumed me

And here’s my happy ending
No more high, I have new art
No more drugs and only love
Plus the Good Lord has my heart

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SolvoAnimus said...
yesterday at 3:28 am:

Beautiful...
Now imagine the Real Artist...
The being who created you, and created the universe...
That is art.

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Hope4All said...
Mar. 17 at 10:50 pm:

this is gorgeous!!!! absolutely wonderful imagery, and emotion. grammatically it could use work but i think we all get the bigger picture. good work... god bless

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Cookie Monster said...
Mar. 14 at 3:02 pm:

This is the one of the BEST poems I ever read!!!!!

starlight26:) replied...
Mar. 14 at 6:42 pm :

This poem was spell-binding. I loved It. It had so much meaning. It taught me so much about life itself and what it really means. Beautiful!! Keep Writing!! Let me know when you write another article!!! :)

Jaquie replied...
Mar. 15 at 8:54 pm :

Thanks so much!

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TheProphet said...
Mar. 4 at 1:10 pm:

Beautiful.

Jaquie replied...
Mar. 4 at 3:48 pm :

Thank you.

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edwardcullen4always said...
Feb. 20 at 5:19 pm:

This was like the best poem I have ever read!! :))

Jaquie replied...
Mar. 12 at 5:25 pm :

Thanks! I love your screen name, by the way. :)

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Phoenix97 said...
Feb. 20 at 2:19 pm:

This is beautiful! I'm glad you gave it some hope at the end.

Jaquie replied...
Mar. 13 at 6:32 pm :

Thank you!

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Pennae said...
Jan. 31 at 8:35 pm:

this is really great, it pulls you down than helps you back up the hill, thanks for posting.
:love overflows:

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Vanished said...
Jan. 25 at 7:17 pm:

Jaquie, "Pills Are My Paintbrush" is quite creative, capturing, emotional and a bit dark. I know the people who compose stories will abhor me for this confession, but I am beginning to believe that the poets are more incredibly gifted - you have written a mesmerizing, spellbinding and smooth piece of writing that inspires silent contemplation. The words played along with eachother nicely, and the message, though somewhat elusive, is still beautiful and heartwrenching. I think I could w... (more »)

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raiseyourhandanddie said...
Jan. 13 at 7:35 am:

i really like this poem cause it sometime i wonder about these's things am i going to heaven or am i going to hell

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despurlock said...
Jan. 6 at 5:17 pm:

Wow, this is ah-mazing, again you have wow-ed me again! This is beautiful! I an jealous of how well you can put together a rhyme scheme b/c as you have seen in my poetry, I am more of a free verse poet who really likes to play with the breaks in lines and stanzas. The way you are simple with your formating makes the poem oh so powerful! I hope you post more poetry up b/c you are great at it!!!! Great work, this deserves to be published!
P.S. Thank you so so so much for your comments, I re... (more »)

Jaquie replied...
Jan. 6 at 6:21 pm :

I saw that they said that and it made me so upset. I wanted to say something but my anger can get the best of me and I thought it was best to keep my mouth shout. Trust me, you're not illiterate. Some people just don't know how to properly write constructive criticism or appreciate poetry.

despurlock replied...
Jan. 6 at 7:04 pm :

Thank you so much that really means a lot to me. I try not to let comments upset me, and if someone doesn't like my work, that is their right, and if they leave feedback on why they don't like my work, then I take it into consideration, but I just thought that the illiterate comment was just off hand, but I'm not going to dwell on it. But thanks again :) Have a great evening! Happy writing :)

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Rorylubinsky said...
Jan. 4 at 6:08 pm:

Phenomenal writing. You incorporated your metaphors effortlessly. This is a very moving piece. Well done!

Jaquie replied...
Jan. 5 at 3:44 pm :

Thank you. I am glad that you enjoyed it.

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ModernMissBennet said...
Jan. 3 at 7:25 pm:

I <3 this amazing poem.

Jaquie replied...
Jan. 4 at 12:50 pm :

Thank you. I'm glad that you liked it.

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Lollipop said...
Jan. 3 at 4:45 pm:

Wow!! this poem is amazing!!!!

Jaquie replied...
Jan. 4 at 12:50 pm :

I'm glad you enjoyed it!

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EnchantedSorrows said...
Jan. 2 at 3:31 am:

I love your poem! It is sweetness and honesty laced in a coating of its own forthrightness. One that goes on to touch the heart. The meaning implied is simple; Drugs are bad - God is good - Life is sweet when you discover there are better ways to spend your days than hiding from the world and feeling blue. God bless you Jaquie!

Jaquie replied...
Jan. 4 at 12:49 pm :

Thank you so much EnchantedSorrows!

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fall_from_grace said...
Dec. 28, 2009 at 2:26 pm:

I'm an atheist and this moved me. You're amazing.

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Fireflie said...
Dec. 17, 2009 at 6:29 pm:

this was absolutley amazing. it made me get shivveries. :D it was smooth, flowin like water. you got some talent there.. :}

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aangelaa said...
Dec. 14, 2009 at 9:05 pm:

wow! this is so powerful! you have been blessed with quite a talent! beautiful!

Jaquie replied...
Dec. 15, 2009 at 6:42 am :

Thank you!

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abooga.looga said...
Dec. 6, 2009 at 4:55 pm:

this has helped me open my eyes. its like reading my life in a way. fighting addiction is hard but believe in god and things will work out. this is amzing. thank you.

Jaquie replied...
Dec. 7, 2009 at 5:59 am :

Thank you for reading. And I'm glad I could help.
God bless,
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chrisbriones said...
Nov. 20, 2009 at 9:24 pm:

its natural for people to, after, or while reading, wonder just what the author has been through. what that person has experienced. what that person has felt that has left such a permanent and distinguishable scar. so i ask you, why does the Good Lord presently hold your heart? what happened that has inspired or compelled you to do what you are today?
oh, and i shouldnt forget to tell you that this is indeed a lovely, and passionate piece of art.

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 21, 2009 at 12:09 pm :

I've never been exposed to drugs in my life but I have felt the reverberations of such abuse very strongly. My little sister was adopted from a home dealing with substance abuse and through the 4-year adoption process I grew very sympathetic towards the topic. I didn't realize until after this was written that it was infact a happier ending I had hoped for in the situation. Thank you so much for your comments and your willingness to listen to my ramblings.
God bless,
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LonelyLove001 said...
Nov. 20, 2009 at 1:47 pm:

This is absolutley amazing and it brought me to tears i take this into consideration because i also am in that position now but havent gotten to the clearing yet

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 21, 2009 at 12:11 pm :

Thank you so much for reading this. You don't know how happy it makes me to see that its being put to good use. I'll be praying for you in this tough time.
God bless,
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<3::wish4wings::<3 said...
Nov. 20, 2009 at 9:52 am:

omg you're amazing! ilove this so much. it says alot:) thanks for writing it, and keep it up!

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 20, 2009 at 11:10 am :

Thank you, so much!

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emjay1216 said...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 3:02 pm:

i love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is awsum. nice job.

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 3:28 pm :

Thanks so much.

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JoCoGirl said...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 12:08 pm:

I officially LOVE this poem! OMG! You have an amazing talent. I also have not had a personal experience with drugs because I have been sheltered but I have experienced it in my family. My brother, in fact. I've seen what drugs will do to someone. Thankfully he is not on them now, but when he was he never ate and he began to look terribly sick. It broke my heart to see him that way and to know how many people are enslaved by drugs. I have a great distane for them and a great love for God. I ... (more »)

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 12:13 pm :

Thank you so much! And God bless you and your family also!

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OscarDonovan said...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 10:24 am:

Very well written and I like the flow of it!
However, the fact that you believed that it would somehow "bring a better insight into my situation" is testament to your arrogance.
I have replied to your comment on my own piece and hope you will be able to answer some of my questions.

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 12:04 pm :

I'm sorry you feel this way. And as to your reply on my comment on your piece -I don't see one.

OscarDonovan replied...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 12:08 pm :

I've posted it but is quite lengthy, so perhaps they are taking a long time to look over it before they post it.

Jaquie replied...
Nov. 19, 2009 at 12:14 pm :

Yes, perhaps that is the answer.

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