To go or To stay

To go or to stay
If I stay
I’ll just want to leave another day
But if I go
I will surely know
That when I leave
My parents will grieve
But if I remain
It would certainly be a strain
But I truly believe
By going I will achieve
To go
Or not to go
Either way I will lose
But I still have to choose.
A little confused
I feel as though I’ve been used.
Whether light
Or night
I will have to pick
Even though it’s a trick.
If I leave everything behind
I would have been unkind
But if I stay instead
I surely will be faced with dread.