i keep blaming you

i could probably link
every bad thing I’ve ever done
back to you

i could blame all my faults
on you

but I think the only reason
that I use you as an excuse
for some things
is because I’m too afraid
to face the fact that
i might
just be
a bad
person.



and I hate myself



in fact,
i blame the fact
that I hate myself
on you, too.

but I think the real reason
i hate myself
is because
of me