On the edge

My mouth tastes like vile
I cant get the taste out
I can't see straight
My visions blurry from the tears
My whole body is shaking
So violently it hurts
My shoulders are hunched
Back hurting
I scream into my pillow
I need to hear his voice
I need to feel his touch
Something from him
To calm my nerves
To let me breathe right
And not choke on the bile
Please
I'm begging
Don't leave me on my own
Don't leave me on the edge
Don't leave me unbalanced
Not again
I don't know if I'll make it out alive
A second time