Tears

I lay in bed,
sobbing because of you.

Crying out your name,
for anyone to hear.

Praying to God, to give me strength,
point me in the right way, and for God's grace.
But you don't hear.

And you don't see me the way I do.

You look at me,
in a way that makes my heart hurt.
Makes me hate everything,
that tore us apart.

But you don't read between the lines.
Or think outside the obvious box.

It tears me apart,
the mixed signals you give.
You love her, yet the way you look at me,
talk to me, speaks its own way.

You have nothing to give,
So you take instead.

My heart, thoughts, and tears.

No longer mine,
but yours for the taking.

Because I let your actions,
tear me apart

Not because you're rude,
or hurtful. Your words cause no pain.

But because your eyes,
filled with hurt and regret,
look at me that way.

You treat me like gold,
but she snatches you away.

You lover her,
I wish I could hear you say.
Because I know you feel that way.

Tell me you love her,
these feelings and tears will go away.

Tell me.

I soon realize, to me,
those are words you cannot say.

Tears start,
no longer caused by pain.
But markng a new hapiness,
that starts today