My wishes never come true

Looking in your eyes
I see something else
I’m not afraid to trust you
I’m not afraid of you

The thing that I’m afraid of
Is letting you close
I have been hurt a lot
And I just don’t want you to do that

Everything your saying
I have heard before
Every word
I’m just not sure what to believe anymore

Trust me
I want to be with you
Just as much as you want to be with me
I’m just scared

All of my life
It’s the only thing I have gotten
I still cry at night
Just to fall asleep

I just wish things were better
I just want this pain to go away
I just wish the people I chose to trust
The people I chose to love
Never hurt me in the beginning….