Tired

I'm tired...

of dreaming,
of hoping,
of lying,
and talking.

of cutting,
of purging,
of starving,
and hurting.

of acting,
of smiling,
of crying,
and laughing.

of walking,
of sleeping,
of breathing,
and eating.

i am tired,
of living,
not knowing
what
I
WANT
having
TO
do so much
waiting until i
DIE.