My father

Why couldn't you be a man
And be what you said
You left when I was 9
As a turtle would do its new born
Why did you do it?
I don't go a day without feeling unwanted
You made my life a living Hell
Now you act you live in Heaven
You try to be God
But act like the Devil
This is my crying, painful heart
Don't step on my hopes, my father
I wish you would have stayed, my father
Your lies won't fill the empty nine years, my father