I Am Ready

You know what? I have been thinking a lot about me. Not what I want. Not that I don't have enough family. Not that I am not happy or even if I am. No, I have been thinking about what I want to be, and what I used to be.
I have been thinking a lot about what I want to happen, such as when I 'grow up' and watching my parents and my aunts and all my older family I have realized we never really grow up. I know that ever since I was little I would think, whenever I grow up I am going to help people, I am going to inspire them for the better. I will be the one could no one could talk down to.
I know realize (within the last few months) if you ever want something to happen do it now, or else you'll never do it. If you want a change, speak now or else your words will grow quite. I know realize I have to be who I want to be. Not who others want me to be. I have been raised in a good home and thank God for my parents now. In less than a year I will be in the reality I never wanted.
The thing is I am ready. I have found my words, I have found my voice and my confidence I have found who I am, and I know that my plan won’t work out as perfect as I hope. I know that I will always be scared to do something new… I know I will always worry I am not perfect, always wonder if I am doing right, and always think I am wrong. But like that amazing quote in that awesome movie says, Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.