Nameless

Google tells me that there are over 988,968 words in the English language
the Oxford dictionary says,
there is no sensible answer to this question

even with an estimated 4,000 words
that are added to the dictionary each year,
not one could entirely describe the ache inside of me

content is an obsolete
something that is no longer
associated with I

you will still find me in the nervous cracks of dawn,
trying to fill the empty ache in my spine
with words like trauma and tragedy

The syllables of your name was the closest
I ever came
to titling that ache