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Knowing Nothing of This ’Til Then MAG

January 28, 2009
By Edye Pucciarelli SILVER, Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania
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I was younger then, but only by months.
Curiosity settled unbearably throughout my limbs
And I waited
Patiently for you to carry yourself down wooden stairs
Rightleftright – my ear against olive-colored carpet
To make sure that coast was clear
Hands resting on hinge of drawer and pulling
I reached inside, ransacked and shifted through its contents
And uncovered your thoughts in journal form (success)
I remembered then how embarrassment
Burnt my cheeks red
Everything you said when you found the
Monster I had hidden in the sheets beneath my bed
And I recalled your tears
The shape your body took, fetally curled
With your knees against your chest
You wept endlessly.
Fearing flood or revenge
I tossed and turned that night, grasping the fact
That I had failed you and again –
When I opened that leather cover and divulged
Your evenly spaced print to my eyes and that entry
I had watched you record on blue printed lines
Night prior, before dark, before saying
“Sharpen this, please!” in an angry tone
From across the hall and again –
With a clean-cut graphite tip you wrote
“October twenty-second …”
In the uppermost corner and proceeded with
“My Journal, I have never felt so alone …”

© Adi R., Houston, TX

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Hotaru said...
on Mar. 24 2011 at 4:29 pm
You are a very well writer and I like how you worded your poem.
PerfectMGymnast DIAMOND said...
on Mar. 24 2011 at 3:36 pm
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beautiful! i could feel the emotion!
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on Mar. 24 2011 at 9:39 am
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I reallt feel the emotion coming out of this poem!
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It was alright.
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Great job i can really Feel the emotion i loved it
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its very good 
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i loved it! keep on writing, you are very good at it. :)
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Very good descriptive words and voice. Nice job.
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Great poem. keep up the good job.
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I agree. Very good peice. <3
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Definitely keep writing poetry.
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I really like way the imagery ties in with the poem.  It is very nice indeed.
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don't understand it for the most part, but you are very talented, keep it up, i look forward to reading more.
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on Jan. 17 2011 at 9:13 pm
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nice job !!!
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this poem is ..... well just amazing!!!!!! :)
fragileblackorchid SILVER said...
on Jan. 17 2011 at 7:37 pm
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People want to know why I do this, why I write such gross stuff. I like to tell them I have the heart of a small boy... and I keep it in a jar on my desk. <br /> -Stephen King :P<br /> The trust of the innocent is the liar&#039;s most useful tool. <br /> -Stephen King<br /> Now that we&#039;re here, <br /> It&#039;s so far away <br /> All the struggle we thought was in vain <br /> All the mistakes, <br /> One life contained <br /> They all finally start to go away <br /> Now that we&#039;re here its so far away <br /> And I feel like I can face the day <br /> I can forgive and I&rsquo;m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

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this dude replyed on my work too, lolz ignore him, its actually quite amusing
fragileblackorchid SILVER said...
on Jan. 17 2011 at 7:36 pm
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People want to know why I do this, why I write such gross stuff. I like to tell them I have the heart of a small boy... and I keep it in a jar on my desk. <br /> -Stephen King :P<br /> The trust of the innocent is the liar&#039;s most useful tool. <br /> -Stephen King<br /> Now that we&#039;re here, <br /> It&#039;s so far away <br /> All the struggle we thought was in vain <br /> All the mistakes, <br /> One life contained <br /> They all finally start to go away <br /> Now that we&#039;re here its so far away <br /> And I feel like I can face the day <br /> I can forgive and I&rsquo;m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

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o oops, this was meant to go underneath a comment, sorry
fragileblackorchid SILVER said...
on Jan. 17 2011 at 7:27 pm
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People want to know why I do this, why I write such gross stuff. I like to tell them I have the heart of a small boy... and I keep it in a jar on my desk. <br /> -Stephen King :P<br /> The trust of the innocent is the liar&#039;s most useful tool. <br /> -Stephen King<br /> Now that we&#039;re here, <br /> It&#039;s so far away <br /> All the struggle we thought was in vain <br /> All the mistakes, <br /> One life contained <br /> They all finally start to go away <br /> Now that we&#039;re here its so far away <br /> And I feel like I can face the day <br /> I can forgive and I&rsquo;m not ashamed to be the person that I am today

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lolz its the same guy who commented neatively on my work too so ignore him lolz, its actually a bit amusing to me
YoungsurvivorLiz SILVER said...
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I had to read it twice, to understand it. This is exellente!!! Incredibly touching. Your are a great writer.