Memories and walking and walking away

I sit here and lie to myself saying everythings going to be okai
When the past brings sorrow and pain in every known way
Wishing you would come back never to leave, always to stay
Not knowing what to do, so i sit in the rain
Hopeing the others dont see my tears
That fall with every memeorie of you, vivid and clear
And the one thing of all, my only fear
Is that u left me in my prison of a world alone
The love that we shared gone, now on my own
I see the sunset bringing new memories so i walk away
Left walking with out anything to say
Holding in all my sorrow that builds and brings more pain
It seems pain is all that all i feel
Never to scar, always to bleed,never to heal
What happened to our plans and dreams
Faild, now sitting here broken hearted, sowing in the seems
These memories hang over my head, always around
Left alone to cry and sit alone, not making any sound
left covered in my saddness with no hope,chance or love, nothing found
Everythingy has gone wrong, instead of going up, it goes down...
Where do i go, what do i do, what happens now....??