September Lights

I try to forget, but you are always there to remind me
those subtle memories that continuously bind me.
when i see you, when you smile at her, i wanna cry in the middle of the hallway.
high school can be so hard when i see you everyday.

i thought i was doing good,
thought i moved on.
i guess i was not as okay as i thought. because

On my way home, those memories came back to me,
Memories that refuse to leave,
No matter how hard i plea.

the chill in the air,
reminds me how many months have passed,
and how you didn't care
how i dreamed that we would last.

Oh I remember the glare in the lights,
Back in September, those inviting nights.
And how the wind would tease my skin.
i remember,
Back in September,
What i will never do again.

The night was so big and new,
And the time i spent, dreaming in you
I know the truth now, it is all i believe,
I wish i could have held on to what i couldn't see.

But back in September, the world was so open,
Everyday i spent hoping,
That this was the beginning of something good,
of something right,
of something i could hold onto.
But i could not hold onto you

The nights were so strange, so still and foreign
I was unaware that they would be swept away,
And stored to be remembered some other day.
After all is done, there is nothing left to say.
But i still remember
Oh, take me back to September.

These months keep going, but i stay still.
These memories won't fade away, they never will.
All the nights, those glaring lights, they shine so bright
In my mind.

Oh I remember the glare in the lights,
Back in September, those inviting nights.
And how the wind would tease my skin.
i remember,
Back in September,
What i will never have again.