Sactitation Confiscation

When I needed you most
You got up and fled
You left when I was trembling
Under my bed

Earth-shattering, mind-clogging
Like a downpour of diamonds.
Abandoned by the sidewalk
I pray you are crying.

Blinding by the pain
Beautiful misery
Like satan's acupunture
Impossible diety.

You cannot imagine
So, don't take a shot.
Right now I don't know if I
Trust you or not.

Can anyone explain
The painful confusion
Or is my only hope an
Impossible dellusion?

Unlock the safe
And I'll confiscate your key
You are not permitted
To know the real me.