Every once in a while
I catch myself thinking about
how my hair is everywhere, all the time,
how you used to love it—
(I don’t know if you still love it)
how, some days,
You must wake up and find long,
tangled strands of it,
woven into the threads of your sheets,
from all the times I sa...
I never liked the ivory wool blanket you came with—
it was itchy, it didn’t match your silk.
I used to wear your as a scarf.
Did you know I couldn’t fall asleep without you?
The frays came with time, the pilling came with time,
and there were many a time
that I almo...
Last night at dinner,
Dad watched me push on
a bump on my back,
massaging it with three fingers
in circular motions.
Hold my neck up high,
make a straight line,
shoulders back,
the bump still there.
“Your mother had that, you know.
Just get used to it.”
The only piece of you in me...
When I was little,
the names inside meant nothing to me.
I tried to write like you,
like every daughter probably does,
tries to copy her mother.
by forging your signature for two months
in fourth grade, until my teacher finally noticed.
My hair is permanently parted left and in a low bu...
It’s funny how, even in the dark, pitch black, when the sounds are all you see, you know the cloud of your breath hovers inches away—tiny particles of moist, of germs, of the last thing you drank, the last person you kissed. Floating, because those particles float, it’s science though I don’...
An aged version
of my grandmother sat waiting
for my sister and me on the stoop
in front of the place you probably
didn’t call home.
I knew you were in there,
upstairs perhaps,
your body now bloated from
the pills that dissolved inside of you,
to stop those voices,
to make you safe.
...
If I could have my way,
It’d probably be October.
We’d be on wicker chairs,
the kind that sink a little
when you shift your weight.
I guess I’d like it to be
somewhere upstate,
because it’s a lot colder there,
and the light is pure gold.
It would speckle the table,
little fla...
There are days that
I don't think I look
like you at all,
that I look more like
Dad, that all his genes
were passed on to me.
So on those days,
I pull out that picture
where our hair is almost
the same,
and my smile is just about
as crooked,
as big,
as yours.
I hold them there,...
Nothing looked the same—
Or maybe everything did? I couldn’t tell.
It had all blurred together over time.
Seven years of clinging to those memories,
the steep drive up the canyons,
the smell of fire and salt on my skin.
Sand was stuck to me eternally,
or so it seemed at the time—
t...
We started at a Burger king,
on the hot plastic benches outside,
a spread of their finest in front of us.
We were fresh off the plane,
with our rental car loaded, suitcases
filling the trunk and backseat.
It was like we were moving here,
with the amount of stuff we had.
Mom finished her ...
I am lying here, patiently waiting for sleep. You haven’t been to bed in a while, my dear—what’s wrong? Can I help in any way? I just want to hear your breath—steady, perpetual—interrupting the still silence of our nightly slumber. I can’t sleep without you, my dear. You’ve been away b...