I’m so tired.

So, so tired.

No one has ever made me feel this way before.

Only you.

Only you can make me smile so much.

And cry so much.

I’m just so… tired.

Of listening to you rant about your life without caring about mine. Nodding and comforting you as you say it’s not fair.

It’s not fair…

That I have to listen to you cry about her all the time. 

And not talk about me. Think about me. Love me.

Do you know?

How you make me feel?

I’ll tell you….

I’m.

So.

Tired.

Of saying “I love you” and never hearing it back.

Of always listening but never being heard. Do you know? Even silence is a sound.

Why won’t you listen?

Why won’t you listen to me?

Please.

Just…

Break my heart.

Or just love me.

Stop keeping me like a placeholder.

Because…

I’m just so tired.

Of getting my hopes up and then slowly watching as they get crushed. 

Just….

Stop. Please.

Because it’s not fair. That I feel this way, and I know you don’t.

Babe…

Listen.

I’m getting so tired.

So, please, just break me. Hurt me. Cut me off.

At least, then, I can take a breath…

And, maybe, finally get some sleep.