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The Gun and My Last Breath

June 18, 2014
By Nelly_Nell GOLD, Bakersfield, California
Nelly_Nell GOLD, Bakersfield, California
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Favorite Quote:
&#039;&#039; For every dark night there is an even brighter day&quot;<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Tupac Shukar


“Your jokes aren’t funny”
I had to say these words every day on my way to and from school.
I was bullied all though out my life now being a sophomore
in high school I was getting tired of it but use to it at the same time.
I always got made fun of because I was supper tall
And didn’t “look” like the other girls .On the bus I had one friend
her name was Jayla. She was like a sister she stuck with me since
sixth grade, until she got shot in a drive by and died right before freshman
year. So I ended up going to high school completely alone. I was tormented to
the max. I would go home close my door and cry in my pillow every day.
At home it wasn’t much better either because my family was always either
ignoring each other or they were arguing.

As time went on things got even worse. I had
kids telling me they hated me, giving me dirty looks, or
telling me they wanted me to go to a different school so they
didn’t never had to see my face again. But nothing hurt worse
than when someone asked me “What’s the point of your existence?”

That made me just freeze I couldn’t believe I had just heard that.
After I heard that I started wondering the same question. It’s not
like anyone would ever notice if I was gone or anything so what
was the point. Then I remember my momma keeps a gun tucked
right under her third mattress “fully loaded” . I thought about using
it but then I thought no I can make it. Until the next day at school another
kid told me I’m worthless and I need to kill myself. So I went home got the
gun and just as my finger touched the trigger my little sister and my momma
came around the corner and saw what I was doing. My mother dropped
the glass she was holding and my little sister started screaming and running
towards me. I stared at her blankly as I pulled the trigger on the gun and watched the
blood from my head spill to the floor as I took my last breath and to never be hurt again.



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on Nov. 13 2014 at 1:21 am
Nelly_Nell GOLD, Bakersfield, California
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Favorite Quote:
&#039;&#039; For every dark night there is an even brighter day&quot;<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Tupac Shukar

Thanks love, and i completly agree with you i cant stand when people do stuuf like that to make a kid want to kill themselves. :)  

on Nov. 13 2014 at 12:44 am
RadioFree BRONZE, Quinlan, Texas
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Favorite Quote:
&ldquo;Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I&#039;m not sure about the universe.&rdquo; -Albert Einstein

Very well written and very touching, i've always pitied teens who do this to theirselves, and always despised the people that caused them to do it. Very impressive.

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on Oct. 21 2014 at 9:53 am
LyricBlunt, Denver, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
"Music expresses who you are as a person." "Oh, butterfingers."Opportunities' come when you least expect it, it is all up to you what you do with them. Life sometimes throws you a curveball, you just got to go with it sometimes.

When I read this article, i though oh no not another person that is a victim of bullying, but when I heard this person friend got shot. That was brutal and cold. I really wish you stop calling yourself worthless the person that wrote this, your not perfect and not unique, I been bullied worse then you have. People tormet me for a long time always pushing me jumping me, beating me up, kjicking my leg, sometimes you have to get through the bad days, to get to the good days. Sometimes you have  to ignore that person and just say forget them, they mean nothing to me. It may be hard to . do, but it is your best defense. There may be a time, when you don't take it anymore, and want to hurt them, like they hurt you. It isn't going to do anything. Th epoint of your existence is to find who you are and what you can do. So cut the negative crap off and start postiveness flow through you. That person that said what is your point of existence that was cold an dmean and they have issues so apprently they need to tease you, so they can feel in that empty spot know as insecurity, those people don't know what you beeen through. Those people can suck it for all i care. You awesome and I can see that you almost gave up and you embrace your sadness in this poem, no one will know how it feels to be bullied and torment intill in happens to them. Anyway best of luck and keep on trying to do good things, by the way if someone says negativeness to you hit them with postiveness so if someone says your ugly, say thank you. Anyway I love this poem and I love how you share your message with us. 

on Jul. 16 2014 at 11:19 pm
Nelly_Nell GOLD, Bakersfield, California
11 articles 0 photos 60 comments

Favorite Quote:
&#039;&#039; For every dark night there is an even brighter day&quot;<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Tupac Shukar

Thanks,love Ireally do try to realate my poems to peoples lives :)

on Jul. 15 2014 at 9:45 pm
Nella.Girl97 BRONZE, Ashland, Wisconsin
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Favorite Quote:
&quot;Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart.&quot;

Wow! That was....tpuching and eye opening! Very.....sad....but relatablein a way! I

on Jul. 2 2014 at 11:37 pm
Nelly_Nell GOLD, Bakersfield, California
11 articles 0 photos 60 comments

Favorite Quote:
&#039;&#039; For every dark night there is an even brighter day&quot;<br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /> -Tupac Shukar

Thanks love, and thats a really good idea thanks for the advice :)  

on Jul. 2 2014 at 11:08 pm
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
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Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,<br /> More real than solid earth;<br /> And to these death does not mean decay,<br /> But only another birth" <br /> - Isabella Banks

That was really powerful and realistic, if i were you, i would even add a part two where the sister and mom go to a funeral or something. Great job!!!! o^_^o