“Tell me it's going to be okay,” she said, looking at him with apprehension deep in her eyes, gently nestled in his arms. Looking down at her, he was caught entranced by her, her delicate made-up face with past tears streaming down. Her eyes were now bursting with hues of gold, blue, and green in the evening sun.

 “Everything will be okay, I promise.” She laid still for a moment, still staring

 “How can you be so sure though, everything that we have been through. Everything must come to an end, including us.” She sat up a little straighter. “We might have an end but I don't want it to be now. I want you to hold me like you care like you want me to live in this world with you. Give me a reason to be here, to stay with you, to live.” 

He watched her movements slowly, her body tightened more with every passing second he didn't say anything; her eyes got glossy and tears slowly fell once more.

 “Say something, please. I’m begging you to say anything”. He stared moment less, not knowing the right words.

He moved his hand from her arm up to her cheek, slowly wiping the tear stains from under her eyes, waiting for her approving stare. Gaining her attention he stopped and looked around.

 “I want to give you a reason to live, but I'm not the person to give you that. I’m not supposed to. As bad as I want to be, I know that I can’t. I can’t be there anymore.” He looked back down, feeling her body breathless and weak in his arms. “I’m so sorry”. In a shaky voice, gently moving her body off of him she gripped his shirt more. Trying to pull him closer but the pain overtook her it wasn't enough to keep him. Her eyes filled with pain and horror 

“But, you just promised it was going to be okay,” she said softly. 

Feeling the bark on the tree, his hand brushed against the initials they placed together months ago. The tears overcame him. It wasn’t peace anymore, it was pain. The pain of realizing that it was over, the pain he got just from looking at her. He stood up slowly, his body growing weak.

 “Please don’t do this. Please” she sat mourning. The pain in her voice caused a shooting ache in his chest and stomach, consuming his thoughts. He froze staring at her, she was so beautiful that it hurt, but it was never her. It was the moments that were beautiful. The way they laid, intertwined with each other on the warm ground under the tree. The way the sun hit them; it was beautiful, not her. 

He still knew how much he loved her, it just wasn't enough to make him stay