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Maybe

May 8, 2010
By Phoenix611 GOLD, Avon, Colorado
Phoenix611 GOLD, Avon, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
"Zip it, or I'll come over there and zip it for you." -Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side


I love him so much. But he will never know, because he likes her instead. I’m hundreds of miles away; I can’t do anything about that.
He has gorgeous eyes. They’re ice blue with gray around the edges and little dark blue flecks. Those eyes look right into your heart if you’re not careful.
And he has the most amazing smile. When you try to take a photo of him, the smile goes out of his eyes and he fakes it for the camera.
But I have a photo of him that was snapped when he wasn’t expecting it, and he’s smiling his real smile. He hasn’t had time to fake the smile yet, and the laughter is still in those perfect eyes.
I call it ‘My Smile’ even though I’m sure that smile was meant for her.
And I can’t do anything about that either.
The only thing I can do is refuse to tell him how I feel, and continue to always be there for him. I can’t tell him, things are just starting to get better with the other girl.
I can’t add my feelings to everything he’s already thinking about.
I won’t do that to him.
In that movie last night, I kept looking at that empty seat next to me and wishing he were there. I kept reaching for a nonexistent hand.
And the worst part? He was in the same movie at the same time, five hundred miles away, wishing she were next to him.
He tells me when they fight, he tells me when they make up, he told me when she said she’d go to prom with him.
And I’m always happy for him when it’s going right, always crushed when he’s crushed.
She’s the only one he wants, he’s the only one I want.
Bu I can’t wallow in self-pity forever.
Maybe after prom I’ll be able to spill my guts like he spilled his and maybe he will feel the same.
Maybe we will end up boyfriend and girlfriend.
Maybe someday all my crazy far-fetched fantasies about us will come true.
Maybe.


The author's comments:
This is about me, the guy I like, and his current almost-girlfriend. all 100% true, just leaving out the names.

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on Jun. 1 2010 at 10:05 pm
Phoenix611 GOLD, Avon, Colorado
10 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Zip it, or I'll come over there and zip it for you." -Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side

Yeah it stinks :( thanks i hope so

on Jun. 1 2010 at 7:49 pm
Alice_in_Wonderland GOLD, San Clemente, California
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Favorite Quote:
“I could give up, I could stay stuck, or I could move on, So I put one foot front of the other, No no no nothing’s gonna break my stride, “ –David Archuleta (The Other Side of Down)

Awww... sorry about that, that must stink! One of my friends has that same exact problem too. Good luck and I hope you two end up together.

on May. 25 2010 at 9:45 pm
TheSummoningFreak PLATINUM, Lugoff, South Carolina
41 articles 0 photos 122 comments

Favorite Quote:
if you can never let yourself fall you'll never know what it's like to love

i know right.

email me and we can talk and i'll tell you all anout my best friend and how i'm in love with him

(iloveyoubelle01@yahoo.com)

email me!


on May. 25 2010 at 9:42 pm
TheSummoningFreak PLATINUM, Lugoff, South Carolina
41 articles 0 photos 122 comments

Favorite Quote:
if you can never let yourself fall you'll never know what it's like to love

i know. its like we know each other's secrets and hopes and dreams and all that and always there for each other. the guy i'm on love with is the most amazing guy ever and we're best frineds he know's every thing about me stuff i've never told anybody ever. and i;m so in love but he's in love with this other gitl who doesn't want him and told him so and i had to pick him up with he was upset about and i was like this girl has the most amazing guy and she just doesn't even care. i was so mad god i just wish he felt the same way i do.

email me

(iloveyoubelle01@yahoo.com)

we can talk!


on May. 25 2010 at 9:02 pm
Phoenix611 GOLD, Avon, Colorado
10 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Zip it, or I'll come over there and zip it for you." -Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side

seriously!!!! especially when you know them inside and out and your always there for them and no they go out with someone else....

on May. 24 2010 at 4:16 pm
TheSummoningFreak PLATINUM, Lugoff, South Carolina
41 articles 0 photos 122 comments

Favorite Quote:
if you can never let yourself fall you'll never know what it's like to love

yeah, i know it's like why can't you love me...

on May. 24 2010 at 4:08 pm
Phoenix611 GOLD, Avon, Colorado
10 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Zip it, or I'll come over there and zip it for you." -Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side

the whole guy-likes-other-girl thing :(

on May. 24 2010 at 4:07 pm
Phoenix611 GOLD, Avon, Colorado
10 articles 0 photos 40 comments

Favorite Quote:
"Zip it, or I'll come over there and zip it for you." -Sandra Bullock, The Blind Side

Thanks!! i know it sucks :(

on May. 21 2010 at 2:32 pm
TheSummoningFreak PLATINUM, Lugoff, South Carolina
41 articles 0 photos 122 comments

Favorite Quote:
if you can never let yourself fall you'll never know what it's like to love

I LOve This it is soo good i have the same proclem in my love life so i get this story