I go outside for hours, just sitting by the trees
The chilly fall breeze tickles my cheek, and make me feel so free
It's relaxing, and clears my mind
It makes me forget the cancer is still inside, but it doesn't bother me
I was diagnosed 2 years ago on October 23rd
I'll never forget that day when my life changed forever
I lost all my weight, and still have no hair
The only thing worse is when everyone stares
Yes, I know I'm ill inside and out
That does not give you the right to treat me different than anyone else
I'm still the same me
My personality has not changed
So treat me as if the cancer is not in my brain
But right now I'm not doing so well
The doctor said I need another transplant of stem cells
I'm getting weaker by the day; thinner by the week
I feel like the only thing helping are those quiet October trees
Like I said before, I go out there every single day
The colors of the leaves just take me breath away
The whistling of the wind takes me back to a happier time, when I wasn't cooped up in a hospital bed silently crying
The only thing that keeps my pain at ease, is sitting outside with those quiet October trees