The pain keeps increasing
I’m here sat down in a chair with wheels, that holds me, holds me from falling. Its dark here I’m scared. But am I? I don’t even know if I have feelings anymore it seems like It’s all gone ,it feels like someone plunged their hand inside of me and pulled my soul out, my way of being me. Since that afternoon my life changed forever, not to good, too bad really bad it almost like I’m living a nightmare and I won’t wake up, I want to but I can’t.
I look everywhere but I don’t see anything there just nothing ,nothing. I try to hear something but, I cant there’s nothing. Im left everyday surrounded by nothingness.
I try to open my mouth, but no words come out, it’s almost like I’m screaming silently in frustration, it hurts you know! There’s nothing I can do anymore or see, or say, or hear.
I cant walk my legs are numb there off I can’t find the on button its almost like its broken.
Now my cheeks are wet, are there tears perhaps? I don’t know I can’t feel my eyes, I want to feel the tears crawling down my face but I cant, I just wish that day i had died and maybe now I wouldn’t be living this horrible nightmare, of nothingness.