Spacious, sophisticated, stylish, all lies when it comes to describing my personal paradise. A common habitat has been differentiated between fiction and reality due to the expectations set by worldly desires and luxurious lifestyles. Despite its shape, size, and design, it can be considered as my fortress of solitude, my entire world, my safe zone. Fictionally, it is expected to have materialistic qualities that are only there to soothe the eyes and not the soul and mind. Although its maintenance differs from person to person, it is a place that reflects personality, passion, and peace. Everyone deserves to have that one place where you can speak your mind without any hindrance or impediment. For me, this is my place, filled with laughter, love, and loss. It is also the bearer of my secrets. Secrets that cannot be shared with the people around me, secrets that only I am supposed to know. These secrets are not a burden to me as long as the four walls around me are there to listen. My heart and soul have been witnesses to many pain that I have suffered from over the years. From being confident to being underconfident, from being an extrovert to becoming silent. Many have criticized my paradise to be the reason for my change but in reality, it is my only escape from my daily struggle that no one understands. Disagreeing with the fact that staying here will suffocate me one day, I have already considered it to be my utopia. My utopia is not perfect. It is messy, dirty, and extremely unorganized. But in my eyes, it is the most beautiful place on Earth. It is my perfect world where there is no right or wrong. It is a place where freedom and liberty are the main rulers. 

       The natural presence of the habitat is fulfilled when the sunlight enters each morning. It lights up the place with positivity and hope of new beginnings. It fills me up with the idea that “the new day is going to be better than yesterday.” As the windows open later in the day, the wind enters making the temperature match that of the nature outside. It is still warm, calm, and comfortable. Eventually, the natural occurrences start to co-exist amongst human interactions and activities. As people enter, they directly encounter the blazing sun rays. It clearly makes their eyes squint, wanting to avoid the rays, however, the blowing provides a level of comfort to them. Although it hurts their eyes, it gives me peace and light that I need to motivate myself towards positiveness.  With multiple visitations, it is always busy with some kind of attendance. It also experiences the presence of technical belongings, adding variety to the kind of residence it encounters in its day-to-day life. The loud presence of the robotic machine takes out all the impurities that have befriended each other throughout the day. The warm and cold feelings surround it when the rectangular Ipad comes into my hand at night. It feels extremely soothing when the speaker plays my favorite songs here. Even after being occupied with events all day long, it still provides me with the warmth I require after a stressful day. After a  tiring day when I go there, I find myself to be at peace as I forget about my worries even if it's just for a moment. As time passes, the moment turns into hours, and in the end, I end up forgetting about everything. It helps me forget all of my agonies and fills me with the aspiration of a better day in the future. I feel free to dream. Dreams that are personal, dreams that cannot be said out loud, dreams that are only dreamt within the four walls. Although, I have no restrictions and I have the freedom to follow my dreams; however, some dreams are better if they are kept a secret. 

       The amount of comfort that I receive cannot be compared or measured. Unfortunately, the feeling of being on cloud nine soon fades away as reality hits its course. All the troubles and worries in life keep rushing back into my memory, no matter how much I want to avoid them. Stressful events that happen throughout the day come flashing into my mind. No matter how hard I try not to think about it, I keep getting persuaded. Life isn’t easy, however, it can be made easier through calm confrontations with problems that are faced. In order to reach this level of peacefulness, one needs to be in a place where he or she can think straight and find necessary solutions to their worries. It gives me the opportunity to pour my heart out whether it is by shedding tears or screaming out loud. I attain this kind of tranquillity in this place. It gives me a different kind of consolation during times of trouble and helps me reach moments of blissfulness by giving me time and helping me reflect upon myself and the acts that led me into the situation. 

     Its validity is not only responsible for my comfort but it also acts like my best friend. I cry, I laugh, I dance, I sing, I do everything when I am here. It gives me the warmth of its embrace that makes me want to open up more and more. The story of my life is a secret that does not cross the walls of this place. It allows me to express myself the way no human ever could. The safety I feel here is almost indescribable. In a few words, it gives me a euphoric feeling that makes me content from the bottom of my heart. It is a clear witness to my most beautiful yet weird moments.These moments vary from me being a crazy fangirl to being a mature girl trying to solve my issues.  Its existence is extremely pleasant and helps me find solace better than any human interaction that I have come forth with. Maybe it is the absence of anything living that makes me want to be myself and share my thoughts; it is a place of self-reflection and self-realization. I seem to have a different impression in front of various people. Each and every one of them seems to believe that they know me completely. But they fail to know that figuring out someone’s likes and dislikes do not make you understand them. To actually know me, they have to make an effort to understand my emotions and struggles. This is something that all my loved ones have failed to achieve. They have no idea about the stressful thoughts that run through my mind all the time. I pretend to be okay even when I am not. My actions inside this place are completely different the moment I enter. I am my truest self when I see the mess I have created here. It automatically brings a smile to my face thinking that I don’t have to pretend as long as I am here. 

       Even though this place gives me peace of mind, it is the memories that I created and the emotions that are attached to the materials around, the real reason for my calmness and composure. Each and every corner of this place has a sense of my presence along with the people that I love.  The unfolded clothes inside the dark cabinet remind me of the scoldings I received from my mother and are a reminder that it is for my own betterment. The posters on the wall that are stuck like glue, everything reminds me of a part of myself that wishes to live in a fictional world with my favorite band and television characters. It is a depiction of my passion as the posters or the books on the shelf make me feel delighted thinking about the times I escaped reality through their help. My child-like emotions are exemplified with the presence of my stuffed toys kept above the bookshelf, taking me back to a happier time. The technical appliances that are kept right beside shows are very important to me as they help me cope with the hassle in my life. The rest of the place is filled with pictures of my loved ones that keep reminding me that there are people in this world that care for me unconditionally. It is filled with positive energy that does not let me stay upset or feel negative for a long time. My tired mind has seemed to find its resting spot when I enter. It is as if my mind and soul already know that as long as I am here, there is nothing to worry about. It has been my friend in need, a friend indeed. A companion to hold with a shoulder to cry. A parent with comfort and a sibling with support. My bedroom is my heaven, it may not be perfect, but it is safe, sufficient, and soulful.