Woke up ready to go to my hometown for the week. Turned a 6 hour drive into a 10 hour drive. Once in in my hometown,I went to my favorite place. My old house. I sat there for 20 minutes just crying. Then I went to my church, prayed and once done praying I walked the grounds. There my spirit and attitude start to go away. My mind wasn't allowed to think. I just walked in utter silence. Smiling and exhaling all of the negative thoughts.Thinking of only peaceful happy thoughts. Left alone to be carefree. The next day I got to go up on the mountains. I never thought that letting go of everything would feel so good. I went to an overlook. Looking into that deep valley and knowing that at that moment I truly was home. So much that I had to let go of while there on that mountain top. My mother took photos of me being carefree. At times I thought I would cry because I allowed myself to be happy and carefree for the first time in years. I danced like nobody was watching me. I exhaled everything else negative that was left inside of me. I screamed" I AM FREE OF YOU AND I AM HOME AND HAPPY". For saying that i laughed because it felt so good. Yes it was named at someone who I deeply hate. Nonetheless I finally said it and felt amazing. I was carefree happy and me. Nobody to judge me. Nobody to be angered by. Nobody to bother me for an hour. My spirit me and mother nature all going carefree.