Every day I try so hard. With everything. No matter how hard I try I get absolutely nowhere. Every day I put heart and soul into everything I write and where do I get. Most recent, favorite of the day. All I really want is to be in the magazine. I see so many stories in there. The all have emotion in there. I put that into all of my work. I try so hard every day to be on top. I will consider this my last time trying to figure out why. Why am I not getting here? Why am I not like them? So if this doesn’t make it in. oh well. Because I’m done. Done with trying so hard.