Everyone has been through a phase in their lives when they have done something and thought “Man if I never did that everything would be fine right now.” I have been through many times when this happened to me before. I am at the stage in my life where everything I do has reasoning. I never know what might happen in effect to my actions but I still do it. It always comes that one point in time where I get myself stuck in a situation I rather not be in and think “I should have never got myself in this predicament.”  I always remember the time where I really thought that I messed up and knew at that moment that I could never take back what I did.

                When I was in 8^th grade I was just beginning to mature and allowing myself to open up from being the quiet and shy young man that I was. I came across a girl named Tamiya that I really felt attracted to. She was just my type and I knew that I had to let her know how I felt before anyone else did. Soon enough I eventually let her know how I was feeling and she didn’t let me down either; she told me that she was feeling the same way about me. That was the moment when I knew that I had to express my feelings more to get what I want. After a while Tamiya and I began to get very close to each other and I knew that she was exactly who I wanted. By 9^th grade year Tamiya and I were in a well committed relationship.

                Everyone knows that beginning High School is extremely different from Middle school & Elementary. For me it was just that, EXTREMELY different. Actually High school wasn’t just different for me it was unfamiliar, I wasn’t used to seeing so many people and so many attractive girls. However, I was still in a relationship and my girlfriend went to the same school as me so I had to stay away from being too social with other females. My relationship with Tamiya was remarkable; everyone could tell we were in a relationship without us even telling them. Even though we were a couple in school that stood out there was this one awfully flirtatious girl named Alexis that I had almost every class with. She always used to flirt with me and I began to flirt back with her because she was very attractive. After almost half of 9^th grade year we began to talk on the phone and see each other out of school.

At this point I was still dating Tamiya and I don’t think she even had a clue that I was cheating on her. I used to feel guilty when I was with Tamiya and I saw Alexis in school just walking past us smiling. She knew I had a girlfriend she just didn’t care, and I knew I was wrong I just couldn’t help myself. Well one day Tamiya told me she was sick so she wouldn’t be coming to school, so I took that as extra time to talk to Alexis. During third period’s class switch Alexis and I were in the hallway laughing and flirting with each other which was usual for us when Tamiya wasn’t around. Then in a split second I knew I had messed up everything. Tamiya was walking down the hall and Alexis saw her so she kissed me; Tamiya saw, turned around and walked the other direction. I went chasing after her but she wanted nothing to do with me. The next day I stopped talking to Alexis and spent the next week trying to get my girlfriend back. It just didn’t work; Tamiya broke up with me for good. I wished every day that I could take back the day when I first started talking to Alexis and just remained loyal to Tamiya.

I really was down in the dumps for a couple months thinking about how I really screwed up and I couldn’t do anything to change what I did. This made me think to myself to consider the consequences of my actions before I attempt to do what I want to do. I know everyone had to experience a time like this before, I know for sure that I’m not the only one. This is a stage that all teens go through in life. Now I think carefully before making split second decisions that could have long term consequences. I take that experience as a lesson well learned.