I just wish I could tell her more about her  her dad but I don’t want to scare her plus she’s not showing any sings of what her dad had he was insane  maybe it skipped her I cant loose my daughter to that
I was thinking about what my mom had said about my dad it never left my mind that was all I could think about it was just stuck in my mind like glue It was very uncommon for her to even mention him I couldn’t help the fact that she was acting different she was doing things for me she hadn’t don’t since I was ten years old she was washing and putting my clothes away and was making me breakfast in bed every morning. Did she not remember my  16th birthday was Friday Maybe she missed me being little well what every the reason was it was a very strange one for that face every thing was strange the town the people even my mom maybe its my over active imagination taking me on a trip  when my mom said some thing about my dad it took a toll on me. I didn’t know why it just did maybe things will all go back to normal flashback “daddy look at what I made I made a fort” “It looks great baby girl” “Daddy do you have to go to work tonight?” “Yes I have to go to work every night.” Flashback over* That’s the third time I’ve had a dream but my eyes are always open. But it’s also about a little girl with her dad. I just wish I knew what it was. It’s hard to go to sleep with something heavily on my mind and I start school tomorrow.

“Alex get up time for school” I’m up ill be down in a min” as I walk down the stairs I fall but when I get up I don’t feel anything I was into the kitchen I see a cake and a happy birthday sign “ thanks mom but you didn’t have to do that well I got to go to school” wait! “mom says one last gift as mom holds out the car keys to a new car I feel nothing but joy “ thanks for the new car mom” my schools like 30 min form my house but I like the drive my school is huge when I walk in I go straight to the main office to get my classes I see a boy looking at me like watching me . With every thing that has happened that is the least of my worries. That’s not even strange to me when I walk to first period the teacher greats me with a smile and a friendly hello he settles the class down and introduces me to the class “class this sis Alex she is new here please make her feel welcome “ I take my seat in the back of the class next to a girl name jade she started to tell me what we have been doing in class but all I can do is stare out the window after first period I go straight to lunch and there I see that boy looking at me as I walk to get me a coke I bump into him then all the sudden






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“Run john run there coming to kill us run” .


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when I touched him I had another vision I wish I knew why they were happening this town is crazy or maybe its me when I walk in to the bath room I see my eyes turn golden and red I don’t know what’s going on with me every thing is crazy this town is driving me insane

I can make since of anything thing that’s going on my mom has never spoke one word about my dad with out me begging me and even when she talks about him its very little not even enough to answer my questions. These flash backs make no since at all my eyes change colors almost every time I have a flash back and what’s with this boy watching me I don’t know what’s going on when I walk in to 3 period and go to the back of the class and sit in the single desk in the back by the window and look out of it they whole class there was way to much on my mind to think of any thing extra on my mind I did that in every class just sat and looked out the window at the end of the day jade saw me and invited me to hang out with her friends at the coffee shop down town when we pull up the coffee shop I feel like I’ve been here before like all of this I have seen before when I go to open the door
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“Mom get a picture of me and dad I want to remember this day for ever its been the best birth day overcome here dad get in it with me I you to be in it with me “
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I don’t understand why I have these flash back because they never make any since at all to me jade in traduces me to all here friends “ Alex this is Mack ,Kevin ,Katie and jc” I flash a smile to them and tell them my name is Alex and that is was good to met them all its getting late and I left my car at home that day I just felt like walking to day as I walk out of the store I see that say boy watching me but I pay him no mind I walk home as normal when I get home I quickly go to my room I am very tried . The next morning I get up earlier and get to school earlier to met jade and her friend when I get there I see the boy watching me so I ask jade what is name is they say his name is john he’s strange he don’t talk to any one he just sits there and looks out the window and stays to him self keeps to him self why do u ask “ well because every time I see him he watching me “ I find my self getting up and walking over there to him when I finally get there I ask why does he watch me “ after school meet me behind the school after school there things you don’t know that u need to “ as I walked away I couldn’t help but think about what he said was there something I needed to know that I didn’t what was they not telling me

After school I waited for two hours until he finally showed up “ u asked me to met you here “ yes I did do you know any thing about this town or your dad” No my mom said he died before I was born and she don’t like to talk about him so I never ask any questions she will get mad and just look at me like I did some thing wrong” well your dad was a killer he went insane back when u were about 3 years old” wait I was told that he died before I was born wait what is it I don’t get it” well let me finish and explain every thing” “ok” “your dad was in your life when u were little when you were 2 your dad got sick but actually he was insane and you are just like him have u been having visions like flash backs and your eyes turning a different color” yes I have they happen a lot they happened write when I moved to this town every thing has been crazy I just thought it was me” Well it kind of is you your brain is like your dad he was crazy and when your mom left him it set him off see your mom don’t like to talk about him because she think it will make you like him but you all ready are you can control when you have the flash backs and visions think of when u were little and see if you can see one of you and your dad” ok I will hold on” try to remember your third birthday



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“Dad where were you u missed my party” “Daddy was at work im sorry I missed it” “its ok dad”
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I saw it all it was that he missed my part “ that’s not what I was talking about after that the argument that ended your mom and dad that pushed him over the edge”





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“I cant believe that you missed are only daughters birthday she’s only going to turn 3 once” “you know I have to work to keep the food on the table for you and here I cant just take off when I want to you know that “I cant take this anymore were over this is over I’m sorry”
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“This is all to much for me nothing makes since my dad died before I was born and how do you know all of this” “ “do you remember every living here when u were little” “ no I just moved here a month ago” “ well you lived here till you were for you left around the time your died when you were about 2 me and your were best friends then you moved away try to remember your second birthday who helped u blow out your candles that day”
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“happy birthday blow out your candles” “can john help me” “yes” “john come help me”
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“how do you know all of this and I don’t” “ because the whole town knows they just don’t know you’re his kid but I know you are you were my best friend” “well I got to be going its getting late we can hang out tomorrow and talk more ” well do u want to go grab some thing to eat with me to night and we can talk more about this” “ sure”. As I walk away I cant help but feel my life has been one big lie when I get home I walk in and my mom asked me where I had been and I just look at here and go to my room and say nothing there’s nothing to say all my life she had lied to me about every thing I cant trust her so who can I trust just about that time I hear a knock at the door “ Alex there’s some one here for you” I think it must be jon but I just got home as I walk down the stairs I’m looking at all the pictures on the wall and thinking about how my life has been one big lie how could she do this to me “ are you ready to go” “ yes” while were driving down the road I’m looking at every thing and it feels like I’ve been here before every thing john said was true its hard to believe that all my life has been a lie. When we get to the place I’ve see this place before but I could say a word. When we walk in we go right in and set down “ Alex what do you want to eat” I quickly look down at the menu “ I would like a stake and bake potato” “ ok” he says with the biggest grin I smile back and start to remember when me and him were little playing in the yard and I start to remember every thing but for some reason at this moment I cant be sad about it. After we get done eating he said that he had one more thing to show me some thing that would help me understand every thing. We went to the park the old one that was almost gone because every one went to the better newer park when we got there he walked me over to the tree and showed me some thing my mom had carverd in to a tree for us it said alex










&










john
best friends forevery then it all hit me like a punch.then all the suden I fell out

When I came back to john was carrying me in to my house he told my mom who he’s was I could hear every thing that was going on when I set me on my bed he want down and talked to my mom and told here that I had feel a sleep in the truck on the ride home. The he told here that he was going to come pick me up for school tomorrow because he was scared for me to drive. The next morning at around 6 a.m. john big loud black truck pulled in I ran to the door so my mom could stop and talk to him till we were late for school she was good at making people late when I got in the truck he had told me that I had feel out at the tree I said every thing was all to much for me to take in at one time when we got to school we walked every were together. Every one looked very puzzled to see john the loner and Alex the new kid walking and talking together.at the end of the day he showed me some of the new places that just got built in town I hadn’t been in this town for years I need to know where every thing was at. About 20 minuets after I got home I left I went back to the park. When I got there some thing inside of me clicked I went crazy I could hear voices in my head telling me I was going crazy that it was my turn to follow my dads foot steps Cody showed up and found me in the tree hiding for him he helped me down and I asked why was he here how did he know I was here. He told me he could read my thoughts I didn’t ask questions because I really didn’t care he said he could help me but then I said you cant save me from my self only I can do that and even I cant do that I’m alone. When I go home ask my mom about my dad and I told here I know every thing so she finally told me every thing “ well Alex I guess your old enough to know about every thing. Your dad didn’t die before you were born he was around until you were there me and you dad was together till you were three it was your third birthday me and him got in and argument because he missed your party I knew he was insane but I loved him anyway but that had put me over the edge I was done with him missing family events. He had miss almost all of them since you were two years old I got tires of it a left him and it drove him over the edge so he went crazy and started killed a lot of people he was killed when you were 5 so I just came up with he died before you were born u never noticed that he was gone u just always thought that he was dead I’m sorry I never told you the truth.

I sat there and looked at her with the most blank look I could find words to say I’m glad she told me the truth which I all ready knew but it’s the fact that I had to beg her to get the truth it was hard to trust any thing she said to me that nights I couldn’t believe that the one person I trusted the person that lied to me and this wasent a little white lie this is what made uo my whole life every thing that I was told never knowing who I was or what I was every thing has come crashing down I cant even think straight they all had keeped this lie going for years I cant even look at them in the eye. Walk out of the house feeling no different then I did when john told me every thing my feelings never change I just had to make them think I knew nothing when I walk out I forgot to grab me keys and I’m not going back in that house they will make me sit down and talk about how I’m feeling and I really don’t feel anything right know all I feel is the pain of not knowing all these years that my life is not when I think it is. When I get to the coffle house I go in and sit down at a table and put my head down I need time to think just when I think I am alone here come john walking in he knows something’s wrong I don’t get it how does he know all of this or how he remembered me after all the years. When he sat down I told him what I had been told about he know every thing I said right before I said it I was a little wearied out When I got done drinking my coffee I walked out side he asked me where my car was and I said I walked here I didn’t want to drive so I gave him a hug and turned to walk home when he told me he was takeing me home and that was not a question it was a statement he didn’t want me to get hurt that night after I went home I turned on the new and saw there was a bad wreck on the road where john lives I knew that trunk anywhere that was johns truck . I ran down stairs got my keys and left I had just got my friend back even though I didn’t remember him but I did and I wasn’t about to lose him. When I got there they had already to him to the hospital when I got to the hospital they told me he was in surgery I knew that wasent going to be good I didn’t know who to call I didn’t know what to do I never met his mom nd they couldn’t find his phone.Just after that thought they had brought me his fone it was in his pocket I didn’t know what to do when I went to unlock his phone I saw my picture as his wall paper I think am I really that important. When I get past me being his wallpaper I look at his contacts I only see three me and his brother jayden and his mom I don’t get it wheres every one els that’s not the point I think to my self so I call his mom and tell her what had happened she quickly rushed down there when she got there I went to introduce my self but she just gave me a hug and said thank you Alex for calling me you are a really good friend I think in my head how does she know my name maybe she had met me before but that wasn’t the problem at hand .

When I wake up in the hospital bed I don’t remember anything I cant see eather but I can here my mom and Alex telling me to wake up but I cant open my eyes and its starting to scary me. I want to answer but I cant so I go back to sleep when I wake up I open my eyes to see my room with flowers and a card that has not been opened I get up and get it and read it to my self

John,
You are an amazing friend but being here in this town is not a good thing for me so ima going back to the town I grew up in to live with my brother I hope when you get this u will under stand my choice I will miss you very much just know I love you maybe will meat again some day.


















With love,




















Alex
I cant take this my best friends gone again I cant take losing her again she’s to important to me when I look on the date that she dated it and it was today that means I might still have time to get to the airport when I get out of bed every thing hurts but right now I got to get her to stay when I walk out of my room I rush out side and run as fast as I can to the airport when I get there I see her boring the plane I yell her name as loud as I could and as she turns around she has a smile a mile wide on her face shes runs to me and drops her bags and jumps in my arms and gives me the biggest hug I say to her I’m so glad that I got her in time I couldn’t take losing you again when we go set down I asked her if my mom had came and seen me.She said that she couldn’t keep my mom away for me that kinda surprised me she hasn’t really showed she cared about me since my littler brother cota was borne.I think I wish I thought to my self I wish I knew what she was think shes just kinda looking at me.I think to myself did I do some thing wrong but I don’t know my life is going down hill

I don’t really know what to thing im gald hes ok but know it just messes up thing should I stay here or go home to my brothers house I don’t want to leave but every thing that is going on in this town I don’t know how much more I can take every thing is not going right I cant do this every day things get crazier ad crazier I don’t know how much more that I can take of this town my life has ben turned up side down my mom has lied to me all my life they all have lied to me expect john and hes the only one who cant stand me. I don’t know if I should stay or go every things all messed up
When I went to bed that night I couldn’t sleep I just laded there staring hopelessly thinking of what I should do and who was I going to hurt in the process of making my self happy. The next morning when I got up my mom was up to great me in her im sad but im not going to show it voice I knew she was up set because I was thinking about leavening her. I was the last bird that was going to leave the nest it was haed for her to think about that especial since my dads birthday is comeing up. Every thing in my word hade change now I know who my dad was and who I was going to be one day I couldn’t help but think I was crazy. When I went to school jonh was waiting on me in the same spot as every day as if he was never in the hospital like nothing every happened but when I look at him some things wrong I can tell we have been friends since we were little. Hey whats wrong? I asked him in the lowest voice he just looked down and smiled like he does when he has a surprise for me. Just when I thought my life couldent get any more crazy and complicated hes gets down on one knee and says “ since I met you you were the one I loved and want to see my self with so will you do me the honor of marring me” All I can do is smile and and say yes as I start to cry he gives me the biggest hug of my life. John drove me home we didn’t know wither to tell my mom or to wait until the time was right to me the time was right when ever we were going to tell her. When she got home she knew some thing was up I was the happiest I had been since the day she told us that we we’re moving. I had cooked us some supper so we could tell her over her favorite meal. When I put her plate in front of her she saw the ring and then she smiled she knew what the news was she was happy I hadent seen her smile like that since I won the 3rd grade spelling bee. John knew that he need to ask my brother so he had planed a trip for me and him to go see and break the news to my brother mycal and my best friend blake and invite them to the wedding. It was a shame that the only family that john had was his younger brother but he was fine with it . are flight was in two days I couldn’t wait I had to back a lot we were staying a week and it was summer down there. When we left to go to the air port I was so happy to see my brother and blake. When weh got there mycal came a picked us up and took us to the house. When I texted blake and told him I was in town he wanted to get some coffie so I agreed to meet him at the old cofie shop down town and catch up for old time sake. When I drove over there and saw him he had a rose in his had and I knew what this was going to be

When I walked to the table he was sitting at he handed the rose and said “ A rose for a rose. I didn’t know how to tell him that I was engaged to the one person that he hated the most but that was the part that was so unclear why did he hate him john said it had some thing to do with the past and I never asked any questions after that. I asked blake how he had been and then it hit he said what I knew that he was going to say the words I didn’t want to hear come out of his mouth I miss you …. I hate the thought of telling him in a place so out in the open like this what if he yelled what if he cryed Then quickly the words came out of my mouth “ Blake im engaged to john” I didn’t mean for it to come out like that but it did and the look on his face was between I wanna cry and a very mad look I I didn’t know what to do or if I should walk away but when I got up blake look at me and said pleas sit down. When I sat down he looked at me and said “ what happed to all the plans we made every thing you said I said what about any of that did that ever matter” I noticed my self getting sad but didn’t show it “ blake things happen people change” people may change but what you said don’t change” I started to think maybe he was right maybe I was still waiting on our plans “ Blake I cant keep think and wishing blake we stopped talking what was I supposed to do? He looked at me like I was right but said nothing just got up and walked away I didn’t have any thing to say. I got up from the table put the money down and walked away.
While I was driving home there was to much on my mind every thing happening at one when I pulled in the drive way I saw Blake’s truck and I knew he was here and some thing was going on . when I walked in my brother was still at work and john and Blake were arguing back and forth When they heard the door they stopped and john quickly walked over and gave me a big hug blake through this phone down and walked out I followed ad left john there standing alone
When I say blake's face his lip was bleeding all I could say is why did this happened blake I said in a calm voice he turned around and looked at me with a dead look in his eye “ what do you want what could you possible say to make any of this any better” I looked down with a sad look and truly I didn’t know what to say