Dear Ava,
Your passing has created an unrepairable hole in my heart. The age of five is too short of a life for anyone. I’m sorry you had to suffer from that horrible brain tumor, but I know you are now in a happy place with God. You will never be forgotten Ava. I will never forget your sassy little attitude or your beautiful smile you always had on your face. Without those things I would have an even bigger hole in my heart because you made such an impact on my life. Even though I have sadness now, I am lucky to have had my special little cousin in my life for five years. Everyday my family and I try to remember all the happy times we had with you but sometimes it is hard to think happy because we are still carrying such sadness.

I remember visiting you at the hospital all the time. The hospital was clean and filled with warm and caring staff but it felt so cold because it was filled with sadness and sick people. You looked so small and helpless lying in the hospital bed. I wish I could have taken your place or done something to take the pain away. We would paint your nails or draw pictures of beautiful princesses like the ones you saw in Disney with you. It broke my heart that you couldn’t get up and play with all your cousins and live your life like a normal five year old would. I loved seeing how happy you got when we came to visit you and I hated seeing how sad you were when we left. You loved it when we used to take you in your wheelchair down to the gift shop so you could look at all the stuffed animals and pick out a new one. You called it the pet store and you had a big bright smile every time we went there. You also liked looking out the window at the water park and the streets.

It hasn’t even been a year since your passing and it is so hard to move on. I miss seeing you happy and dancing at the dance studio we danced at together. I miss swimming with you at Aunt Apryl’s house. I miss all of our family holidays and birthdays we spent together. Most of all, I miss you and I will always carry the memory of my little angel.