I've watched 

Though I couldn't understand 

I watched

And while flashbacks are so easily written on the pages of the books I love

they're far more painful in my reality.

A childhood rooted in escapism

books that center around fairy tales and our world and conflict and 

Memory

Those mountains aren't home if I have no one to go back to

And while she's done things that p*ssed me off

I loved her every hour

She is a beautiful soul

and although she is misguided in some ways

Someday

She'll find someone to love her for who she is

The way I love her as my best friend.

Fears and sleepwalking and insecurities and all.

She helped me grow up

My Samwise Gamgee

There to the mountains and back.

Escapism

Friendship

Love

I know that at first, the main character in my novel was you.

It was you

Because authors write what we know

And when I come back to The Shire

It's you I want to see

Because after all the things we've seen on our sometimes separate journeys

The Shire isn't home without you, Sam.