Why do these tears keep on falling?


Why do I care so much?
Why does it seem like this feeling has become forbidden?


At the beginning we were just friends…friends with hidden desire.


Till now I have just felt as though I was ok.


You made me feel this rush.This excitement.


Ok with just being your friend, and that a relationship would never occur.


But now I am stuck.


I feel like I have just been used.


Used by someone that was supposed to be one of my best friends.


Supposed to be there.


Do I deserve such a fate… to be alone?


To feel as though I am not worth love?


Not worth anything, as though I am just a good time.


A feeling as though it is my fault and I did this to myself?


I was the one who said it was alright but yet I never knew feelings would come,


Why do I care?


Why did I start to like you after we took it to the next level?


Why not before? Isnt that how its supposed to be?


I am mad at myself now for giving in.


For thinking that if I kept being your “special friend” that you would fall too,


I feel as though I have done something wrong to make me feel this way.


But why did I let you in? Why?


When I knew you were a flirt and had potential to hurt me?


Yet I still do it. I still let you in.


Not only into my body…but most importantly into my mind and heart?


I wish I was brave.


Brave enough to tell you this but yet I cant.


Because I made that pact of no strings attached.