beneath my fingertips

the ashes of the dead

the memories of forever

all stuck inside my head



just like you had said

you’re still right here beside me

in your cold, lifeless self

only to remind me



of one million and one moments

and of twelve thousand roses

of all of our laughter

and of all of our doses



you shouldn’tve reminded me

of what i left behind

because as i lay above your grave

its you i need to find



searching for our hands

together intertwined

searching for your face

to see how it had shined



i wish i hadn’t missed you

i wish it wasn’t true

but as i sit above you

i don’t know what to do



the last words i can say

the last words of goodbye

the words i say i love you

the words i cannot hide