You still turning into someone I never thought could exist.
I wish I could say “I know who that is”
I don’t know in fact, who you’re turning in to,
I just wish seeing it, didn’t bring back memories of me and you.
I wonder why you did this to me.
I tried as best as I could, I thought you could see…
But you didn’t. You never did.
All those “I love you’s”…They were just fibs.
Why are you changing? Please tell me why.
Is it your new goal, to hurt me? Make me cry?
You were never this way when we were together.
Never made me feel uncomfortable, even if it meant you dealing with harsh weather.
But here I am wondering why.
I mean seriously tell me, what happened to you and I?
Why did you do this in the first place?
Something I said? That has me burning in this furnace.
I tried to show you how much I cared and loved.
In the end it makes me feel exposed.
Exposed to this cruel world I was once able to escape.
You helped me have my own special space.
Some where I never got hurt, some where I felt safe.
I thought our love was strong. It was delicate like a vase.
Explain it to me would you? What did I do?
I would love to know because I have no clue.
I guess we are better off separate.
It is what you wanted, isn’t it?
You seemed pretty eager for me to end it.
I never asked for this, I should have never said it.
One word. Yes. You asked me out. I said yes.
If I would’ve said no, I could’ve saved you time and stress.
If. If. The key word to everything.
A simple enough word. One that changed me.
There are other words and phrases too.
Like “I promise.” Or “I love you.”
I mean who was I to think that you could love me.
When all I was, was a burden and extra weight to carry.
Don’t worry about me though, as I told you all the time, and like I said before,
I can take care of myself. I mean I was fine on my own… y’know before.
It will be okay, well at least that’s what I’ve been telling myself.
I am sure I can do this and make it through this hell.