I grew up in a world that you always say your sorry even if you don't see a problem. I'm sorry became and empty, worthless phrase. I found myself saying it so often I forgot what it meant. I'd say I was sorry when someone would wrong me. It's good to let go and not be angry, but you should never have to apologize for merely existing. Then when I came out, it got way worse. I would apologize for being gay even when I knew I couldn't control it. I wasn't really sorry but I made people believe I was. Until one day I couldn't pretend anymore. That's why I wrote this piece: for myself and for others who may experience the same thing.