This wasn't supposed to happen. It wasn’t supposed to get this bad.

All I can think while my mom lays in the hospital bed is why.

Why? Why is this happening to her?

Why is this happening to us?

The doctors said it would be an easy surgery and that she would be ok.

I believed them. I believed it. 

I thought it would all be ok yet here we are right back where we started. 

Her laying in the hospital bed and us 3 all huddled around her.

I blame her, I blame the doctors, I blame my father. I blame all of them.

She was supposed to wake up and be okay. She was supposed to wake up and be better.

Yet here we are right back where we started.