How much longer
will this go on?
How much longer
will I look at you
and see everything I used to have
and hold
but no longer have
that privilege?
How much longer
will I cry
when you smile
and bleed
when you laugh?
How much longer
will an icy wall of separation
bruise my hands as I fight
to tear it down
and when I fail
grow stronger
as I slump shivering against it?
How much longer
will memories flow between us
like electricity
when our eyes meet
and shock me when you look away
ashamed?
How much longer
will I feel shame
and regret what we did?
How much longer
will the rejection haunt me constantly?
How much longer
will I love you?